Monday, July 30, 2012
Why do we have to “love/embrace/be happy” who we are/were as fat people? I read so many places where people clarify that “Yes, I loved myself despite being 20/50/100/whatever pounds overweight.” Is that the politically correct thing to qualify? Are we going to be ostracized if we do not take that stance? I’m not saying that it is not possible but it is the complete opposite for me. I loathed myself for not having the ability to lose weight; for not having control over my eating; for spending my entire life over-weight; for not being happy with who I was. It was my motivation for finally losing the weight and changing my lifestyle. I have realized only now, a good two years into this journey, that I still have issues at heart that I have to deal with (although I haven’t been able to label them yet). Losing weight is not the magic pill for happiness. But, with that being said, I am exponentially happier with who I am now. Losing this weight has lifted a huge mental weight off my shoulders and my anxiety levels have dropped considerably. I still have work to do and the balance between food/exercise will always exist but I can say that now I am happy with myself.