Monday, July 30, 2012
I guess I am on a monthly check in schedule. That is not a good thing. It is funny how time flies when you are eating bad and not exercising. Boy but when you have your nose to the grindstone and are doing everything right on eating and exercising, those days just creep by. That is not really fair. Someone should do something about that.
This is the moment in my blog where I confess my sins and commit to doing better for the month of August... I came, I ate everything bad, it wasn't worth it. You know, you never look back on a month of doing good and regret NOT eating that cookie or that bag of chips. You never look down at the shrinking number on the scale and think, "if only I had had that second slice of pizza..." Why is that? Because pizza, cookies, chips and cake are NOT THAT IMPORTANT. I know, in the heat of the moment, nothing else matters but your craving. I have never been addicted to a controled substance but I can imagine that is what a drug addict feel like. Then, after your fix, what happens? You feel miserable, you gave in. You are a weak, weak person. Next time you will do better, tomorrow you will get back on the wagon on the road to recovery. The bad thing about food addiction is that it isn't looked down on like drugs are, it is encouraged. But we all know this all too well, right? That is why we are here. We love and comfort ourselves and our friends with food. We do it without thinking. There is absolutely NOTHING nutritionally redeeming about a chocolate chip cookie. For all intents and purposes it IS NOT FOOD!! It is pure sugar crack.
All that is rational and sane within me knows that junk food is just that, JUNK. But it is so hard to say no. I don't know what the answer is but I know that it isn't moderation just like alcoholics can't have MODERATE amounts of alcohol. I am still looking for answers, though. I still read every nutrition book and watch every nutritional documentary I can get my hands on hoping that one day it will just click and stick. Until then, I guess I just have to live with the demon and hope that it doesn't destroy my health and what is left of my figure.