Today is first day at work after vacation and I am sending daughter off to her father. It is only for a week - next week I have another week of vacation but then I am going to be the cook at the summer circus camp that daughter is attending.

When I was a child summer leave seemed eternal and when autumn came I always longed for the school to start again - loved the summer break but by august I was ready for school again and I do like autumns because everything gets back to normal agasin.

But I have a hard time to be employed after being self-employed for 26 years. I should definitely not complain, I can plan my own time and I love the work but I feel uneasy about somebody haveing the power to diecide over my day - I sold my right to dio that for the security of a monthly paycheck, paid vacation and the comfort of not having to create my own work all the time.

I will focus on finding routines that works with doggy - he should not be alone more than six hours a day and to manage that I have to work from home - ideal is to do the writings from home but that requires things to happen preferably in the mornings... in fact it is not hard at all to make this work I "just" need some discipline to work it...

Yesterday we celebrated that we are half way through our performances with summer theatre. We had a dutch treat and I brougt salad and skewers with chicken. Ate too much - there was a lot of food and I needed to taste everything... I also longed for a glass of wine which was weird becasue I was not the only sober one, half of us were having water or sodas, but still I longed for the feeling of being wrth it... better get myself t a meeting today. AND I better practice to like this monday too!