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Need To Get Back On Track, For Real

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Oh brother, do I need to get back on track!

This weekend was wonderful and crazy. I had my nieces for a second night (they spent the whole week in CT at my mother's house between their first visit and their last with me) and we went to a very fun annual event, the New Milford Village Fair Days.

For two days at the end of July, our village green is bedecked with white tents from one end to the other. On one end of the green you'll find local businesses, political parties, churches, nature centers, and health services set up offering information, free pens (or other giveaways) and screenings. Right in the middle is a large tent where live music and demonstrations from the martial arts and dance schools happen all day, and not far from there are all the FOOD TENTS -- local restaurants set up shop and offer some of their specialties, and other non-local food vendors set up shop. This year one of the tents had deep fried peanut butter and jelly sandwiches -- not for me, thanks! Ick! After the food come all the arts and crafts vendors, facepainters, glass blowers, etc. You name it, it's probably there.

It's SO DIFFERENT going there with the girls than with our boys. Our boys were interested in food and that's it. My nieces wanted to stop at EVERY SINGLE TENT. Needless to say, I ate fair food and didn't really bother tracking it. Sure I got some exercise walking up and down the green, but I haven't really exercised for weight loss in over a week.

To be honest, as awesome as it was being the Done Girl of the Day, I kind of felt like a fraud because I have been working my plan so half-a$$ed these last two weeks. I'd have a good day and then end up eating a little too much dinner, or I would start off with things from Dunkin Donuts I have no business eating (but tracking my calories so I could beat myself up good and hard for eating a donut).

UGH!! It sucks and I feel like crap.

HOWEVER, this is a new day, a new hour! I've planned a healthy dinner with local veggies from the farmer's market getting top billing. I have time to do 30 Day Shred today and I am committing to myself to get it done today.

I'm eloping in THREE DAYS HOLY CRAP. Then we're in Cape Cod for a whole week. I'm already looking for more active things to do -- like kayaking or standing paddle-boarding. Our cottage is less than a quarter mile from the beach...I am hoping to go on morning walks with my sister most mornings.

I can make a plan, but the most important actions are the actions I can take TODAY.

One of my favorite sayings I've learned hanging around 12-step programs is, "You cannot think your way into right action, you have to act your way into right thinking." I also like, "Move a muscle, change a thought."

Rather than sitting here feelng stagnant, sorry for myself, and unworthy of my Done Girl of the Day day, I am going to go chop up my brussels sprouts, marinate my pork cutlets, and get down in my BadA$$ Fitness Basement and give myself 20 minutes to get a little sweaty.

I am tired of punishing myself for my flaws. Instead of thinking about what a jerk I've been, (and really, was I a jerk? NO! I'm so mean to myself in my head!) I'm going to do things that build my self-esteem instead of thinking things that make it worse.

Starting right this second, I am forgiving myself for the last couple of weeks and saying out loud to my sparkfriends that I am never, never, never giving up on myself. I am in this for the long-haul, this detour was shorter than the last one, and it's all about progress, not perfection. Perfect food/exercise days would be nice, but I'm going to take a page out of "The Spark" and work on tiny achievable goals and build on that.

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    It's taken me untl now to read your wonderfully supportive comment on my blog and to get to yours...I've been kinds sticking my head in the sand with it all and avoiding Spark. I have found your mentality in this blog very inspiring and am taking it with's to us both being kinder to ourselves and to getting back on track asap emoticon emoticon
    2033 days ago
    I loved your quotes - "move a muscle, change a thought" was really for me! Thanks and good luck!
    2035 days ago
    Make yourself come first, soon. emoticon
    2036 days ago
    My detour continues... yesterday was it, though.... I think.

    You deserve all the good stuff - even DGOTD. You work hard. So what if you've hit a bump in the road?? You're still conscious of what you need to do, and you still want to do it. That alone is you not giving up.

    You've got this, lady!!
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    2036 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/30/2012 1:47:39 PM
    No worries I just took a nearly 2 week detour I was tracking and such but in the chaos I've made some bad choices and skipped too many work outs. We can do this. We are human we make bad choices sometimes. We will not give up though!! I'm right there with you emoticon
    2036 days ago
    YES! You have the right attitude! Don't beat yourself up. That event sounded like so much fun. Congrats on your upcoming excitement and make sure to enjoy it.
    You DO deserve DGOTD. Keep up your great attitude and your journey will be a fulfilling and rewarding one.
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