Why do I want to lose weight? What am I seeking? Why can't I get there?

I want to dump the spare tire from around my middle. Every time I see myself in a sitting or squatting position in a mirror (happens a lot at the gym) that band of fat gathers together and frankly depresses me. I can feel really strong abs under there--I'd like them to show off.

I would like my thighs to gain independence from one anther. Being an expert and anti-chafe formulas is not something I want on my resume.

I would like to buy a pretty bra in a department store. I have been using an online catalog for so long I can't even remember the last bra I tried on and bought in person. Matching panties would be a bonus!

I would like to feel less self conscious during intimate moments. Nothing kills the mood more than worrying about your rolls.

I would like to wear pretty clothes that fit and look attractive. Most of the time I hide in baggy t-shirts or sweaters. Most women's athletic clothes don't go up to 2X, so I often wear men's dry-fit shirts for running, etc.

Don't want to fear the waistband any longer!

I would rather have just one chin.

And in terms of how I want to FEEL

I would like my back pain to go away. I wake up sore a lot and I know it's the gut pulling my back out of alignment while I sleep.

I would like my knees to not feel so sore.

I would like to feel rested in the morning. I know I snore which means I probably am not sleeping my best.

I want to feel like I don't have any physical excuse to do anything I want to do.

How do I get there?


No excuses! I know what need to happen--track food, make food healthy choices, say no to things that temps me, limit high calorie treats, move more, drink water. It's not knowledge I don't have--it things I don't always do.

Ask for help! When I am struggling I need to tell people--here or in my real life. Suffering in silence leads to failure.

Take time for me! Time away from home to exercise is OK--it means I am practicing self-care.

Don't participate in eating/drinking at parties to be part of the group or please others. My plans often go out the window in group setting or with my mother ( my worst emotional trigger!). Need to find ways to say no or avoid situations until I feel strong enough to assert myself.

Learn mindful eating. I've been hearing a lot about that lately and want to learn how to practice this behavior. I've always been a very fast eater and then end up feeling very full. Being more mindful will help me enjoy my food and realize when I have had enough.

I think that's all that's in my head right now fellow heart-breakers. I'm off to throw away cookies and candy lurking in my cupboard!