The deppression is finally letting up. I don't feel like crying all the time. Now I just feel numb. I haven't been able to leave the house for more than a few minutes. So no walking.....(hating that by the way). I have been cleaning and reorginizing everything. I have been down loading some songs, cleaning up my comp, catching up on bills stuff, and doing paperwork.
At this time I dare the IRS to try to find something wrong with my system. When you can't leave the house you do try to find things to occupy yourself.
And just so you know I really mean I can't leave the house. If I over stymulate myself I get panic atttacks. Try explaining that to a well intentioned bystanders while your screaming and see if they don't call the nice men with the hug me jackets...I dare you lol.
Yes I can make jokes again I just don't really feel them. At least they aren't going over my head now. I figure I got about half a week of numb and then I will be back to my old self.
As for my eating healthy. it is a win/lose kind of thing. I don't want to eat but as much sweet tea as I am sucking back that is kinda of a good thing. I haven't bindged but I haven't been eating my veggies. I figure with my lack of activity I am back to square one. But it will be easer to get back in the swing of things and I am stronger so I will gain the ground I lost in no time.
I just wish murphys law and the "rule of three" didn't happen while I was in a down ward slope. And for thoughs of you who don't know what I am talking about the rule of three is bad things always happen in three. I just can't think of a worse time for them to happen.
1. family crisis needing a hospitail visit
2. got a bait and switch at with the gym and didn't get to get a membership
3. My fridge is going out.
So I got hit and am getting back up brushing off. And the bipolar slide is finailly heading northward and the depression is finaily clearing. And for the women who think the loss of my hair was a big thing just remember what Bill from king of the hill said when Luann took her beauticain test. "It will grow back".So no I don't count that as a bad thing. Like I said in the previous post their was better ways for muphy to gett to me I should of just kept my mouth shut cause that night, the fridge started breaking. but compresores are cheaper than fridges. So no worrys,well not to much.
Thats about it Oh I will be posting the Quitting teams Augest challenge on Monday. It is a team member's Idea so have fun with it!
That's about it have fun with the pic