It Seems I Might Be Done
Saturday, July 28, 2012
I am very nervous and very excited at the same time. I am having abdominoplasty and a breast lift/augmentation on Monday. I took pre op pictures today at my plastic surgeons office, and my doctor said several times "you are all skin, there is no fatty tissue left, look at you". So I am thinking I might be done, we'll see how I look in a few week. I am excited to see my flat tummy, and the areas that shouldn't be flat, will be nice and full (nothing crazy, I told him no bigger than C's, but I am leaving the exact size to my surgeon, who is the nicest guy). He said I'd probably go down 10 pounds after this. That would put me at my goal. I lost 179 pounds and with 10 pounds of skin.... Done. :)
It's weird how some things just line up for you, as if it was willed by the universe. I went to a shower for my cousin two weeks ago, and my sister went with me to put on my swimsuit. She gave me all sorts of crap about being all skin.. and I should see a surgeon.. blah, blah, blah. I have been financially stretch for a while (thank you recession), and plastic surgery is not in my budget. Although, I do see her point about how I have a flap of skin that still hangs down, while I am skinny enough that my ribs pop out. Her friend at work has a childhood friend who is a plastic surgeon, and she had just gotten an augmentation done. My sister got his number and told me to go for a consult. So I figure at least he can answer my questions. I emailed him, and I even explained that I probably couldn't afford it. He set up a consult for like two days later, last Wednesday July 18th. I go, and he tells me that massive weight loss patients are his favorite because they worked hard, and they are always so happy with the results.. so he gives discounts to his massive weight loss patients because he finds it emotionally rewarding (did I mention that he is the nicest guy... nice looking too). His wife (who is also super nice) handles all the paperwork and she gives me their quote, and it's cheaper than many of my friends have paid for augmentation alone. I know it's a good deal, but I still don't have that kind of money sitting around. She tells me that if money is my only hesitation to call them because they really want to do this for me. I know my body needs it. I am forty and I was over 300 pounds for over 15 plus years... it's just not snapping back. I know this. I tell my sister on the way home that I just don't have the money, and she calls my dad just to see if he could help with financing. My dad offers to pay for this. He is very proud of me for losing all the weight and he really wants to do this for me(I am crying typing this right now). Oddly, where I work is closed for two weeks, July 30th-Aug10th... the recovery time that I can't work is two weeks. My sister calls and before I am even home, I am scheduled for surgery on July 30th... and it's paid for. It's happening on Monday.... I am nervous and excited all at the same time. It will be nice to see what is under all this skin.. the skinny body that I've been working hard for.
He told me that it's all skin... except for fat on my legs, "that is butt, and you need fat on your butt. You lose anymore, and you're going to look gaunt". I think it's going to be strength training and maintainence after this. It seems I might be done. :)