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Time to come clean... Big update and new pictures.

Friday, July 27, 2012

Wow I cant believe it is the end of July and its been 6 months since I have visitied this site. I used to be here EVERY day, all day. This took over my facebook addiction. Then I started to lose weight and then I kinda didnt feel like I needed to be on here as much.

Boy was I wrong. I reached 141 and got tired. Tired of working out, tired of eating healthy. I took pretty much a year break. On and off with excersising and stuff. The good news is i didnt gain a lot of weight back, the bad news it I still gained. I lost me, I lost control, I lost my spark.
But I am not a quitter. I am here, I am back, I love me and I won't give up.

Update in my personal life. I am no longer married. That had probably a lot to do with me being gone. The last 6 months has been VERY VERY VERY difficult. I am a strong cookie though, I pushed through it. I went to school full time, i worked full time and went through a divorce and I did not give up.
I am still healing but it is for the best. It was very peaceful or as peaceful as spliting from someone that was in your life for 6 years can be.

I am hoping to move to Austin in the fall. That is my dream and I will make it happen sooner or later.

I am still singing and finally got back in the studio last night which felt so good.
I am discovering me. I am 24 and have been through a lot of crap, but I keep going.
I am surrounded by amazing people who lifted me when I needed it most.

Last night as i was coming home at midnight I stopped at jack in the box, ate some nasty greasy but delishious food and drove home. I went to bed.
This morning I woke up with a completely new drive. I am ready to get back on the track. I deserve to feel good in my skin. I don't want to go back to where it hurt and I hated myself. I worked to damn hard to lose that.

So I am back. Breakfast :
cottage cheese
and honey.
YUM YUM YUM and water :)


Oh and here are some pictures :)

my sexy boyfriend ;)

My wifey/my best friend/ my motivator


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
FIERCE_FABULOUS 8/15/2012 12:35PM

    awwww i am SO sorry to hear about you and Cody, divorce is NOT an easy thing, glad you are back!!

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BLAIRJ1 8/12/2012 10:05PM

    Glad to have you back, beautiful!

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DEESFIT4LIFE 8/9/2012 11:54PM

    Welcome back, sorry to hear about you and Cody. But glad you found someone new that you adore.

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    Still looking beautiful! Glad to see you back and in charge!

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COOKWITHME65 8/7/2012 3:43PM

    Love your Attitude! You will reach your dreams.

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LETYAK 8/5/2012 12:29PM

    I'm so glad you are back! I have missed you! I am so sorry for what you have gone through. You are definitely strong and can get through anything.We are all here for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JELLEN726 8/3/2012 8:33AM

    WELCOME BACK! We missed you! You have had so much happen in the past months. WOW. But you look gorgeous as ever and your hair is rockin! So is that new boy. Love the crochet top. Thanks for sharing the picks and your attitude is emoticon Glad to have you back emoticon sounds like you have a new spark to push it emoticon

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RUNTRILAUGH 8/2/2012 10:37AM

    yeah! thats an update! glad you are back and smiling!!!!

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SPRINGHAZE 8/2/2012 9:51AM

    So glad to see you are back! Fantasic photos btw

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MRS.NG.06 8/1/2012 11:35AM

    I am SO glad to see you are doing okay despite the divorce, its time to dust ourselves off and get back into LIFE. I know ALOT of peeps dissapeared and the magically alot of them are coming back in August...including mysel and I'm glad to see you on board :D !

If there is a next time you overindulge in fast food, DONT hate yourself, FORGIVE yourself and move forward, getting upset over something that happens doesnt move us much does it? : ) xoxoox

Lets do this! *HUGS*

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TIFFANIE150 7/31/2012 4:46PM

    Still lookin' great! So glad you are back :) You've inspired me on more than one occasion!

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NOPAYNENOGAIN 7/31/2012 11:15AM

    I was divorced young as well! Life seems to love handing good people bad situations! Best part of it all though, is the strength you gain and peace of mind you learn within yourself! Happy to see you back!

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HHOLMES07 7/30/2012 2:21PM

    So sorry about you and your ex husband but you are a strong girl! Oh and you should sooo move to Austin, it's the best!

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MILLER*TIME 7/30/2012 12:58PM

    so sorry about your divorce :( Glad to see you've bounced back though, you're definitely a strong woman. Keep surrounding yourself with positive people and you'll be just fine. By the way, your bf is a hottie! ;)

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BONOLICIOUS2 7/29/2012 5:55PM

    Glad to see you back! Sounds like you are in a good place to get charged up and refocused! Loved the pix, looks like lots of fun all around!

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BETHSWORLD 7/29/2012 12:54PM

    So glad you are back. I am sorry to hear about the divorce..but it sounds like it was for the best. You still look great!

Welcome back cutie!


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GEMINIGEM6 7/29/2012 1:37AM

    Glad you're back. Sorry about your marriage but it seems you've moved on. You look great!

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BILLALEX70 7/28/2012 12:51PM

    It's so weird that you just posted this. I just thought the other day that I hadn't seen anything from you in awhile.

I can totally relate to the life change...currently getting divorced myself. The stress has me eating myself cray. I know better, but just can't seem to stop. I've never given up on being here, but just for spinning the wheel and keeping up with people.

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L.A.PRINCESS 7/28/2012 12:35PM

    Glad to see you're back! The pictures are beautiful. emoticon

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AJAKE421 7/28/2012 9:55AM

    You're beautiful, strong willed, and determined! Glad to see you back here!

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ANHHUGHE 7/28/2012 5:02AM

    Glad you are back. You look amazing! You have an inspiring spirit and that is so awesome. emoticon

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AEROGIRL1594 7/28/2012 12:20AM

    Wow, I love your pictures! You look absolutely stunning!! I know that you can get back into a healthy lifestyle! It might be sometime before you are in full swing, but I know that you can do it! Good luck girl!!

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ASHWILLDOTHIS 7/27/2012 7:55PM

    Glad to have you back and glad to see that positive attitude :]

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 7/27/2012 7:29PM

    Glad to have you back! We missed you. Wow, lots of stuff going on in your world. Sorry to hear about your marriage - but you seem to be happy in your pictures - so that's emoticon

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BELIEVER104 7/27/2012 5:16PM

    So glad to see you back!! You look gorgeous, lady!

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TRAINER_T 7/27/2012 5:00PM

    Singing and enjoying life........great!
You look amazing in your!

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AMBERNICHOLE3 7/27/2012 4:50PM

    I had been wondering where you were, glad you're back!

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HOPEFULHIPPO 7/27/2012 4:27PM

    I wondered how you were doing and so glad to see you back on here.

You look gorgeous as always!! glad to hear you are back in the studio doing what you love.

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CNWFIT 7/27/2012 4:02PM

    You have NO clue how happy I am to have you back on here my wifey!

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ELISELOVE1 7/27/2012 3:50PM

    welcome back. i hope things are going good now

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DISPATCHGIRL32 7/27/2012 3:44PM

  welcome back!

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YESSICASUE 7/27/2012 3:43PM

    Wow, you look incredible! Its so great to see that you have made it through that tough time still strong and happy as are so inspiring and you have given me hope today :) take care

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CHANGINGSAM 7/27/2012 3:30PM

    Welcome back! emoticon

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THELILEA 7/27/2012 3:27PM

    Great to see you, girl! I'm sorry it's been a rough time for you... I can only imagine how stressful... but WOW you have gotten through so much, so beautifully! You look like you are are very happy with a lot of things about your life, so big congrats on making it through the changes! I see your spark, you still got it! :D
Spark on!

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GIRL*IN*MOTION 7/27/2012 3:24PM

    Good to see you back and with such positivity and drive!

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ALESHAWALKER 7/27/2012 3:22PM

    Welcome back... this time around you don't have too far to go. Good luck :D

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CORKY982 7/27/2012 3:14PM

  I'm sorry to hear about the issues going on in your personal life, but judging from those pictures, girl you still look hot and you're still smiling! I always used to look at you for inspiration before when you were active on the site, and I still do. Keep it up :)

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