Thursday, July 26, 2012
Sometimes I feel what we go through is a form of punishment.
I seen my ex and his gf at the store today.
I felt so sick to my stomach.
Everything came rushing back. The hurt and the pain that I thought I was through with.
I know I am never going to quit loving this man. I spent 8 years with him. I get that.
I just feel like running into him like that is a form of punishment. He lives 20 minutes away from that store and should of been at work.
I don't get it and I don't think I ever will.
All I can do is be me. keep being a amazing mom and a good person to everyone I encounter. I KNOW I did not deserve the crap he put me through. I just do not get that after everything why do I still care about him and have feelings there.
On the flip side I graduated school on the 6th of July. By the 17th I had a position at a top doctors office in the area.
I am putting everything into this position and hoping to learn and be one of the best at what I do.
I am not going to let anything bring me down. I WILL be healthy. I WILL be happy. I came this far. I am lucky to have good friends and people around to help me out.
Speaking of good people. I miss my mom so much. She lives in Florida and I live in Michigan
She is going to be here on Aug 11th. I can not wait to see her and my dad. Super excited.
That is all for now