Thursday, July 26, 2012
So last night I attended my very first meeting for compulsive overeaters. I had been contemplating going for a few weeks now but couldn't get past the fact that I'd have to be honest with myself and with other people that I just wasn't managing and haven't been for a long time. So finally I got past that roadblock, got into my car and drove my butt to a meeting. Boy was I glad that I did.
We're all at different stages of our weight loss and I've seen many lose weight, only to gain it back. I was one of those people. I lost 50 lbs in 2010. I've gained at least 35 lbs of that back. Why?
Because not only was I not keeping up with my lifestyle changes, but I never dealt with the real problem. My inability to express my feelings, particularly the uncomfortable ones and I was coping by numbing them by shoveling food into my face and binge eating. If I felt anxious, overwhelmed, frustrated, sad.... I wasn't going to cope with them any other way but to eat them away until the act of eating itself became soothing.
I've done many things this summer to help me cope better with life in general. Attending these meetings is just another way for me to better manage my triggers and gain some of the momentum I had before. Only this time, I'm not just going to deal with the weight ( I know that anyone can eat right and exercise), I'm also going to deal with the mental and emotional reasons that I've allowed myself to get to this point.
I think this is a step that many of us forget as we run out to buy new workout clothes, pedometers, and water bottles. You can't fix the outside without fixing the inside.