I realized today that I don't love myself. After all, if you love something you take care of it, and I don't take very good care of me in anyway. I know Jesus loves me. Now I just need to believe that I'm worth the effort, time, and energy. So here I am again...starting over...again. If I want to lose weight or make any other changes; if I want to help my son; then I have to love myself and help myself first. There's nothing wrong with me. I don't know why I don't love me, but that doesn't matter. What matters is realizing it and moving on. I'm worth taking care of. Now I just have to tell myself that enough times that I begin to believe it.