I am feeling a bit all over the place today. If you could hear the voice in my head you would hear something that resembles Gollum from Lord of the Rings...bouncing from one emotion to the next. I have been very proud of myself the last week or so...I have monitored what I am eating and measuring many goals...and everything was great until I saw the you have lost 0 pounds...yet. Well yes.....and no. Yes, I have not lost any weight from the weight I was when I started...or restarted or when ever it was I weighed the number that is on my page as my "starting" weight. But I have lost....I have lost since I made a serious commitment and since I have decided to give this my all. But today it hit me like a ton os bricks...all this work...all this dedication...and I am not even back to where I started. It was just a stark realization of just how long...and how difficult this journey will be. I can at least hang my hat on the fact that upon realizing all this that I did not immediately throw in the towel and drown myself in ice cream....