Wednesday, July 25, 2012
What did I say last time about Revelle and having fun with her workouts? Arg, not so fun yesterday. Still, I admit she challenged me just enough, more than I would do to myself, but almost to the point of exhaustion. Of course, I need a little exhaustion in my workouts. I am way too easy on myself, with the gentle flow of yoga, the social pace of a walk. I need to shake and sweat and nearly drop the barbell before sinking to the bench, disguising my pause to rest with the excuse of reaching for my towel and water. Yeah, itís good for me, and not everything can be ďfun.Ē
My trial package of training sessions is complete now, so I have to decide if, when, and how I am going to continue. I have family vacation coming up, so when I return from that, Iíll commit to a new plan - either with paid PT sessions or without. That gives me a week or so to work it out mentally - how much can I afford, how much time can I commit once school starts again, and what is it really worth to me in non-monetary ways? And without Revelleís help, will I really continue to make progress towards my goals?
This upcoming week of unstructured time away from home, in crowded quarters, with food and fun and opportunities to relax all around, should be a good test of whether I can continue independently or not. Luckily, I have a fitness-minded family, so there will be yoga on the sand, group ab workouts in the rental house living room, and everyone comparing notes on their morning runs.
There will also be family dinners where we all try to outdo each other in abundance and deliciousness. There will be late evening chats with the ladies, sipping wine. There will be Swiss chocolates (a traditional gift from the Swiss contingency of the clan), lounging on the beach, and naps nearly every day.
It is vacation, after all. Isnít it supposed to be fun?
I may be running to Revelle when I return to volunteer myself for more torture. And thatís okay - it takes a little pain to appreciate pleasure, and a dose of pleasure to be ready for more pain.