What is the real problem here? I guess I would start with me and say, "Self, quit being to hard on yourself for starters and get out there and take charge."

I guess that is the real problem. I didn't really realize it until I just typed it in above. I guess wring things down does really help. Especially when you have no friends. I have lived out here in GA for over 15 years and still have made no more than 3 friends and those 3 friends, I am no longer friends with. I have tried reaching out to them and they never call me back when they say they will. So I gave up a while ago on making friends at all. I have actually tried making new friends and that don't turn out to well cause I don't ever go anywhere, but with my husband. Me loosing my friends that I did have was because of him is what they said. But oh well no loss I guess, cause if they were true friends they would have stuck around. Selfish people in this state, I have learn that since I first moved here over 15 years ago.

I really have no one to talk to anymore except my two kids and they are just kids so the won't understand most of the things I am telling them. But when I do need to talk my son (14) will sit and listen. My husband acts like it's a burden to him to even listen cause it's taking out of his time. I stay stressed all the time so I try to watch a movie to relieve the stress. If it has nothing to do with my husband and it don't benefit him he don't want to deal with it or hear about it. News flash "you should have never got married cause my problems are now yours too."

The only way I feel I can talk about my problems and feel that it might help me, is to write it down. Whether people respond back to me or not, I find it to help me a little better anyway. I just feel alone and would love to have my best friend (husband) at least back in life. We do absolutely nothing together. He won't even watch t.v. with me or even sleep in our bed with me anymore and hasn't in the last 6 months. The only time he gets in the bed with me is when we have sex. The only other time he gets in bed is only when he's sick and feeling depressed again.

I understand where he is coming from cause I live the life he is living cause we are one since we were married. He does not have to go through it alone. I wish he would let me help him and let me in his inner circle again like it used to be.

I wish the stress would just go away and other people would quit pushing our buttons and stay away from this house cause they are the ones starting all the chaos in this house.