I don't know what is wrong with me lately. I think it all stems from my running. After my ankle was feeling better and I was able to run I didn't have a ton of time to get my endurance back up before we started hitting these 100 degree days. It has been over 2 weeks since I have gone running and I think it is starting to get to me. I went out today and had so much doubt in my head that I stopped after 1.3 miles. I don't know why I feel like it is okay to give into the doubt now. I've pushed through so much fitness wise that I am so annoyed that I gave in.

This doubt seems to be carrying over to other things in my life now and I can't stand it anymore. I doubt my work when I know I do a great job. They even had me go to the office to help with a sales pitch to talk specifics about my job. We are pretty darn sure we got the account yesterday. But still, I'm not sure why I doubt it - I'm awesome at my job.

It also seems to be coming out in my relationship with my husband. When I get insecure I get needy and I hate that. I am not a needy person. I'm insecure, needy and not confident - I'm not sure how he is dealing with me right now.

He also stepped down from his supervisor position back to commission sales. He did really need to get out of the position because he was too stressed and did not get paid enough to be on call 24/7. This will probably end up being a pay raise (although nothing is guaranteed on commission) but until the cards fall I can't help but stressing out.

I just want to cry I feel so low right now. How do you get over the doubt?