Monday, July 23, 2012
It is official: I am re-addicted to working out. At the end of barre class today, the instructor, a very Earth-mother, yoga-style woman with a soft coaxing voice and gentle hands, told us to envision doing something that makes us very happy. And you know what I thought? ďThis.Ē My gut reaction was that I feel very happy when I am in one of those yoga or barre classes, or even out for a run or walk or working at the gym with weight machines, and I tap into my inner strength and realize just how good my body can feel when I take care of it. I feel good in body and soul, then, as if my physical weakness was causing much of my self-esteem handicap. By showing myself that I am physically stronger, more flexible, and more capable that I had thought, I rebalance the self-image as well.
Week 4 went as well as Weeks 1 and 3. The plan has stayed solidly in place: barre on Monday, yoga on Tuesday and Friday, and now I have added in personal training sessions. I scheduled three walks with friends last week, making Friday a two-workout day and Tuesday a three-workout day (yoga, PT, and a walk)! I was worried that I would overdo it, but I kept Wednesday to just a long walk with a girlfriend, so it was pretty much a rest day in contrast.
My sessions with Revelle are fun. Her cheerful demeanor contrasts the musculature of her thighs and biceps and her sneaky way of missing a rep or two when she's counting ("One more, I think" - agh!), but she challenges me just enough, which is to say more than I would challenge myself but not beyond my capacities. She gives me weight levels that I would not set for myself, but I have learned not to be afraid when I see her move the pins down - she obviously knows better than I do what I should and can lift (or press, or pull). We also play with the bosu ball and the stability ball, using weights, cables, or even yoga balance moves like tree while I am standing or sitting on the bouncy orbs! Mixing things up, the familiar with the new, keeps each workout interesting.
We have discovered a discrepancy between my right glute and my left - my left glute is definitely weaker, and it is evident when I isolate an exercise on that side, because I lean or shift to compensate. So now, I have a prescription - targeted strength moves just for my left cheek!
I think the next weigh-in is not for a week, but I doubt I will have lost any additional pounds. I feel great, much more toned, and I am taking out cute summer clothes that I didnít feel good in just a month ago. I havenít shopped for clothes in a month, because I can wear the tank tops and short-shorts that I bought a few years ago but which have hung in waiting as they got just a little too snug over the past year or two. Itís like having a whole new wardrobe!
I still want to edge that scale down a little, or at least not see it go up. I love meeting my goal of getting addicted to exercise again, but I know how easily I can lose that feeling once I am busy with work again. I want to make significant progress on muscle tone and weight loss before summer is over. And I want to OWN those weights.