Monday, July 23, 2012
I am older than I once was, have physical limitations I didn't used to have and have more weight on my body that ever before...and everytime I decide to do something about it...there seem to be only options for young, skinny, energetic gymnast types who have cornered the marked on exercise class options and routines. I AM OVER IT.
Where, I ask you, is the option for the 220 lb. 43 year old who has had back surgery and a 8-5 job with children to pick up and a family to feed??? Where is it?
I am the turtle in this race. No more quick fixes or fast cures. I am a turtle darn it and I am actually (for the first time ever) proud of being a turtle. I am going to take this one step at a time, one hour at a time, and by gosh...I am no longer trying to match up to some unreachable unreal standard set by the media and pop culture. I am a mom and so proud of it. I do not need to be anything other than a healthy person who is a loving mom. To each his own...and my own is not trying to be a 20-year-old. I am in love with my 40's, but my knees aren't...my jeans aren't, my pocket-book isn't since I keep having to go out and buy the next size up.
So, enough I say...enough is enough. I just want to dig into my psyche and figure out where the motivations of my heart and soul have gone wrong and work on those things, and in the meantime while I am rediscovering myself (sounds goofy, but I don't care anymore...I'm doing it) I will eat the next right meal, and find one minute, two minutes, three minutes, five minutes, 10, 15, 20 and even 30 minutes to stretch, exercise and take care of myself at my pace. I just wish I could find a class at the gym for beginners that happens any other time outside my work hours.
Seems like the YMCA is just not willing or able to have the beginner class for the slow as you go, committed new beginner with the physical limitations who just wants a better life and to feel better.
Maybe I should start my own at my house and see if I can get any sparkpeople in a similar predicament to join me in my quest.
Keep on keeping on people...we didn't get here overnight, and trying to lose x pounds by x date is just an expectation waiting to turn into resentment.
Carol! Today I am trying to do the next right thing....because it is PROGRESS, NOT PERFECTION I am striving to achieve.