Monday, July 23, 2012
Our beautiful ginger tom passed away last week. He was almost 20 and had a happy and pampered life. But of course I cried, I'm sad and I miss him.
It just hit me though that I haven't turned to food for comfort this time like I have at every other major stress in my adult life in the past. ( Which is how I put an extra 70 pounds onto my already well-padded frame over the last 10 to 15 years.) Stressed or unhappy I would treat myself to chocolate, cakes or takeaways to feel better for a little while. A habit I partly learned from my mum. I can hear her say "let's have something nice" when she was a bit down in the dumps. And it always meant fattening food like a cream cake or chocolate. So I grew up thinking that the way to cheer yourself up was to eat something naughty but nice and I continued in that pattern.
I realised some years ago that emotional eating was my problem. I would stick to a diet, lose pounds but as soon as some serious stress entered my life I would go right off the rails again and undo my good work. I thought if only I could get control of that then I could get slim.
With Sparkpeople I have been concentrating on eating healthy food that I enjoyed (not diet food) and using a smaller plate to reduce portion size a little. I track my food daily and look out for foods that bump up my total calories and try to cut them down. I haven't banned chocolate or cake or takeaways but it all gets tracked and I try to choose the lowest calorie option that I really enjoy. If I start to feel hungry I eat a healthy snack between meals.
The result has been a big reduction in sugar cravings, not feeling deprived or that I have to feel constantly hungry to lose weight and I am enjoying my food. And having hit my first major stress hurdle since starting with Sparkpeople, instead of heading for treats, I have been doing more crafting which absorbs my attention and makes me happy.
This wasn't a deliberate act. I didn't consciously try to sidetrack myself from emotional eating by crafting. It just happened. Something has changed inside. I didn't immediately head for comfort food. Woohoo! A little victory which I think will be a major turning point for me. Thanks little Wallace for helping me see that. RIP sweetheart x