Examine your nakedness!!!
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Yesterday as I stood before the long mirror with my back towards it I peeled off my clothes I then held a hand mirror I had to see my back side I stood there & examined my backside, before I would quickly glance away as if I was turning the pages of a boring book,& skipping to the next page. I saw each fold & roll, I touched it & felt the doughy folds of fat. I slowly turned to the front I thought gee it looks better in the front, then I slowly turned to the side. I was a gasp . There it was my stomach protruded out like beach ball , my sides, had rolls of fat like a cascading waterfall, my breast hung like a Baltimore Oriole nest, My jaw line drooped like a turkey gobbler. I stood for a long time turning & touching examining getting the feel of what it felt like in flesh & in thoughts . You did this to yourself, now you will put yourself back together. I know I am older & we lose our elasticity in our body, but I know I can get rid of the excess fat. I want my back side to be curvy with the sides curved in giving me a waist,I want the beach ball stomach to deflate, I want the jaw & neck line to be pulled in with my chin protruding out just a tad. I want my breast to be like a Robins nest round not droopy. Every day before dressing I am going to examine my nakedness. I am not going to quickly glance away I am coming face to face with it. I really belief by seeing this it will slowly put the thougt in my mind every time the late night eating or over indulging