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Ugh! Terrible choices today...

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Wowza, what a day. I have spent 4 hours total on the road and a whole bunch of time walking around killing time. Every morsel of food that went in my mouth today was from a restaurant. That I managed to stay under 1550 calories is by the grace of God alone.

Marine is home for 5 days, then he's gone to Hawaii for 3 years. It sounds so final when you say it like that. I don't quite know how to deal with it. I've known it's been coming for months now (truthfully, ever since he enlisted, I've known he'd be going 'somewhere', just not where) but when it's all planned out like this and the date is rapidly approaching it's just totally different. Crazymom knows this. She's sending her soldier to AL tomorrow. It's no easy feat being a military mom, even a step-mom.

So, to get my head straight after we dropped Marine at his mom's house, Cam and I went for our first run in a couple of weeks (felt like months). I was totally surprised that we were able to run a full half-mile before we walked it out, considering neither one of us has been doing a lot physically (mine, bc of my back, him, bc of his xbox, lol). My back is still protesting a little bit, but my new shoes are a dream!! This is the first time I've tried them out on gravel, and I was a little scared of what they'd do to my feet. In case you don't know or don't remember, I have neurosis and degenerative joint disease in my feet (and numerous other joints) because of the hypermobility syndrome. That means nerve block injections into the arch, between the toes, and into the planter fascia every month or so. I was wearing skechers shape ups for the cushion, not the toning. I could feel every single pebble otherwise, and it was like walking on broken glass. These shoes let me feel that the rocks are there, but there's enough padding in the mid-foot that it doesn't hurt at all, even with the added impact of running. That's awesome.

My food today leaves much to be desired. Nothing healthy, except the cup of blueberry green tea I'm having right now. My food tracker shows the damage. I shudder to think how many days it'll take to get this sodium flushed out, even making some healthy choices. But the good news is that we spent so much money today that we won't be able to eat out for at least a week, maybe two. One income doesn't leave much wiggle room. I want to go back to work in some ways to help build our money back up, but hubs likes having me home (and so do the kids) and I don't know if I'd be able to manage keeping my gpa up with a job. So right now I'm just thinking out loud, so to speak.

Tomorrow I'm making breakfast (unhealthy, but whole foods at least) of bacon and biscuits and gravy (AJ has a friend over and that's what she wants). I may just make my usual eggs for breakfast since I had so many calories today. But lunch will be leftovers from lunch today and whatever's in the fridge, and I think I'll make steaks for dinner (I have some yummy ribeyes in the freezer) with broccoli and garlic potatoes. Now if I can stick to it, I should be set :)

Okay, I have to watch 2 lectures and go to bed. Good night, Sparkies!!
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MOLLIESMAMA 7/24/2012 6:02AM

    Progress not perfection! 1550 calories isnt bad my dear! My calories range is 1600-1800 so imagne that!The emotional stress of the situation didnt help, but stress does me in too ! HUGS I know this is a hard situation, saying goodbye and it feeling like forever :( but it will go by both slow and too fast!

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KANOE10 7/22/2012 10:04AM

    I am having the same feelings about my son moving out for college. I will miss him and it makes me sad.

However, I have to tell you that Hawaii is not that far away and that you can find good airfare at certain times of the year. The best way to find tickets is to go to Hawaiian Airlines and look for the cheapest day. The cheap times are in the fall and after Xmas.

It is so hard to be separated from our family members.

I am glad the new shoes are working out and helping you! great job on exercising.

You are still tracking and still working on being healthy!

Have a wonderful day with your son!
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1CRAZYDOG 7/21/2012 10:42PM

  Awwww, sweetie, it is soooooooo hard . . . this letting go thing really S-U-C-K-S! Yes, we drop John off early Sunday morning (can you say leave @ 4 am to get him to the airport by 6 am!) OMG. Anyway, he has a mighty long day. We're driving him to Chicago O'Hare. He'll catch a flight to St. Louis (why St. Louis, I have NO Earthly idea . . . or any other planet for that matter) and then from St. Louis to Minneapolis. He will then continue on from Minneapolis to Fairbanks Alaska . I wish it WAS Alabama that he was being stationed @ but nope . . . Alaska.

So . . . you're soooooo right. Though you know the date and it approaches, you kind of block it out of your mind. John had 14 days leave and it has just absolutely, sadly, flown by.

So, that'll be it for awhile. He's in Alaska for 3 yrs., though may be tranferring to Ft. Richardson (Anchorage, Alaska) in 6 mths. when he starts airborne school. That's a whole 'nuther nightmare! But he's happy.

**SIGH** It's tough being a Mom. Enjoy these 5 days my dear. They will pass quickly, as you well know.

And good luck with those lectures! Right now I need toothpicks to keep my eyelids open!

HUGS and more HUGS!

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STARMIZER2000 7/21/2012 10:35PM

  Tomorrow is another day

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