Yup, that's right...I failed again, but I am picking myself up, dusting myself off, and trying this all over again. Yes, I am weary of going at this diet/exercise thing with excitement, only to fall in a month, and maybe I will fall again, but I am trying. I will never reach my goal if I don't try, and every time I have failed, I have learned something.

So today I am beginning again. I think my being so overweight has stopped me from many other changes. It is so easy to decide that rather than cleaning the house, I will sit and eat cookies in front of the television. It is easy to think that since I cannot train for a 5k right now like I want to, that I will pout because the doctor said to take it easy (had to go to the dr. to find out that I have plantar faciitis - easy excuse not to exercise at all). Sooo easy to look around and say I have no support, and no friends and fall into a depression. BUT I REFUSE TO TAKE THE EASY WAY OUT ANYMORE!!!!

I know this is going to be hard and I will have set backs. So what?!! I want to keep moving forward! I know that other people will be eating all kinds of foods and sitting on their bums. That doesn't mean I have to join them! I know that somewhere along the line someone will probably say something hurtful about my looks/weight. Well, I wasn't put on this earth for their viewing pleasure!

I have become lazy and complacent and am addicted to food. I guess my admitting it (publicly too) is the first step to change. Sadly, this is not the Christian example I should be setting, not the parental example I should be setting. I have wallowed in low self esteem for more than enough time. Things change now!

I am ready to face the challenge. I am geared up, and prayed up. I know this is the right thing to do, and I am excited! It will take a long time to become healthy, and for the first time, I am okay with that.