An evening of realization

Saturday, July 21, 2012

So last night I was craving some frozen yogurt, and I wouldn't let myself get any, thinking "I'm fat enough...I don't need to eat that." (I know, not a very kind thought to have) But then I became so focused on wanting it, that I couldn't get it out of my head even when I was trying to read.

And then I had this realization- the more I tell myself that I "shouldn't" have it, the more I'm reinforcing the belief that I AM fat. I mean, it wasn't like I was going out to have a full ice cream sundae with all the works..I'd had a healthy eating day, had room in my calorie allowance, drank LOTS of water....and this would be 200 calories of low fat frozen yogurt. So I switched my thinking, and thought this would be GOOD for me to have~ not rationalization but rather acknowledgment that while I'm not happy with how my body looks right now, denying myself this relatively healthy treat makes me feel like I'm in a much "worse" place than I am.

So, I decided to at least walk the 5 minutes to the store...and once I got outside, I thought, I should take the long way and do a couple more blocks to do a larger loop to get to there. As I started to walk, my legs felt like lead and I wanted to make it a short loop...Then I remembered the goals that I had just put on my SparkPage a couple days ago: : 30 minutes of exercise 4x/week and at least 10 minutes on the other 3 days. I had only ONE more 30 minute day and 2 more 10 minute days. So I thought, I'll make this a 10 minute day but each time I came to a side street that would have looped me back to the store, I told my self, "just walk a little father up to the next one." And whaddya know! Once I got to the store, I'd been walking for 20 minutes! It was a slow walk, so I didn't burn a ton of calories, but I felt good that I met another day's goal and that I didn't let myself down.

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  • JUDITH1654
    You overcame so many obstacles!
    1. You forced yourself to WALK to the store
    2. You readjusted your thinking from negative to positive
    3. Your attitude change brought about completion of a goal!

    Good job!!!
    2024 days ago
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