A small victory!
Friday, July 20, 2012
Well, to me it was a big one. I have been stressed all week about something; basically it was a job proposal I had to write for some freelance work; lots of angst etc. I have REALLY felt stressed, wondering how to write the proposal, wondering if I even had the time to take this extra job on (since I DO want to schedule time for exercise this fall when I am back teaching), wondering if I was capable or just a bogus teacher after all.
My default mode when I am very stressed is emotional eating. Yup, break out the chocolate chips and ice cream. Must calm and comfort myself. Haven't messed up on this one in a while, but today without thinking I reached for the junk.
And guess what? Out of (new) habit I counted out just 5 chips and put them in my mouth. Then I heard a little voice (must have been from Sparkpeople!) saying, "Will that really make you feel better? If food isn't the problem, then food isn't the solution." And wow! I listened!
The food DIDN'T solve anything--except to give me a rush of joy to realize that today I had actually conquered a decades-old habit.
If you look at my food tracker you'll see that many days I allow myself a few chocolate chips, a banana smoothie, a few almonds. That is OK. It is part of my plan. So it's not like I feel deprived at all.
THANK YOU Sparkpeople! Love this new way of living.