Friday, July 20, 2012
Never have I ever had such a bad week as I have this past week. It has been such a roller coaster week...I did something very stupid, that hurt my husband very badly. I hope we can recover.
On the bright side...my prodigal son is returning today! I haven't seen him since Christmas....that is the good.
The other good...even with as much stress that is in my life, I have not turned back to food for comfort. That is saying a lot. I just know that through my journey in this life, that I have not always made good choices...but, I always get up and try again. I hope that my husband can see how much I truly love him, and knows that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. After all, he has loved me in all shapes and sizes, and never complained about how I looked, and always said I was beautiful. Everything is on me this time. I let my depression, and selfishness get in the way of my relationship with so many people in my life. I can only pray, that through this, we both become stronger together, and that we both press on.
I have not slept for the past week, and my head is a bag of goo right now. I think once we both sleep...we will be better. I still hold on to hope. I still hang on to better, in all aspects of my life.