Friday, July 20, 2012
Soooooo, not bad this week. Not bad at all. I got my strength training and cardio in, and my energy and mood continue to improve because of it. I am eating more veggies, as I planned, and that is also making me feel better. I have stayed in my calorie range all week, and I am eating mindfully again -- only when hungry, and stopping when satisfied (NOT stuffed).
In related news, I am no longer a member of the "clean plate" club! I am making it a habit to consciosuly leave the last bite as an exercise in self-control (unless I am really hungry!). Sometimes I even leave more than one bite... and if it is a decent amount, I will pack it up and save it in the refrigerator... except, some foods don't really keep well, so I do end up tossing them, and I am also coming to terms with the fact that sometimes it is OK to throw food away; some people see this as a "waste of food," but the way I look at it: if I am not hungry and still eat the food anyway, I am still "wasting" that food by eating it -- if it turns to fat on my body, that is as big of a waste as throwing it in the trash, because I do not need that surplus of energy. We live in a land of plenty, and although my heart bleeds for those who do not get enough in other countries, I need to look at things realistically: eating 2 extra bites of a breakfast burrito is not going to help them at all (it would only harm me!).
Too bad the scale doesn't agree with my great progress this week, but I have decided to just not listen to that thing for a while and to just keep living my healthy lifestyle, keep tracking my calories and workouts, and use different means of measuring my progress until my next weigh-in, on Aug 3rd. I feel very liberated by this decision, like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders -- I really feel like I can stop being a slave to a piece of machinery and start aiming for HEALTH above all else. And I do feel that my health has improved this week :)
Goals for next Week:
*Start a yoga class at my gym. I need to deal with my stress better, and I am feeling a bit sick of my current routine.... I love yoga. Maybe I will learn something new, and it will keep me going to the gym regularly.
*Tue - Thurs - Sat: Go to the gym! do yoga, strength training, and cardio.
*Mon - Wed - Fri: Do some kind of cardio... even if it is just walking for 10 min.
*Take the stairs whenever possible
*Cook healthy meals! and don't become so tired that I cannot/do not want to cook. I find that when I really over-do my strength training or running, I tend to get really lazy and order out. My goal is to find a balance where I am still tired and sore, but still able to do everyday chores like cooking and cleaning.
*Go to the farmer's market Saturday morning - I've been meaning to for weeks, but keep putting it off. I could really go for some fresh, local tomatoes, corn, kale, eggs, and cheeses.
*Track and stay in my Calorie and Carb ranges.
Random: I just saw this on one of my favorite sites, and thought I would share:
"STORIES WE TELL OURSELVES:
“I’m too busy (to start a fitness program).”
“I don’t have time.”
“I’ve poor time management skill.”
Fact: If this dream of yours really matters to you, you will make time for it. You will plan your life around it, rather than relegating it to number 101th in your priority list. The fact is either you are not really passionate about your dream, or you are holding yourself back from facing your dream. Time is only a man-made concept, one perpetuated by human beings and their creations (think ‘clocks and watches’). It doesn’t really exist. Do you see animals getting stressed over time? You are much smarter than animals, I know. So start acting like one. Don’t let time hold you back."
This is so true! He goes on to speak about other ways we hold ourselves back with the stories we create... I am so done with this entire line of thinking. Fear of failure has no place in my mind right now -- mistakes are good for the soul, and it is through trial and error that I have come to the point I am now (which I am proud of).
With this in mind, I am stepping fearlessly into this week, living each day with my health as my #1 priority. Hopefully I succeed, but even if I fail to reach my goals, I will learn a lesson with each setback, and keep trying new things until I do reach them. I need to remember: the journey is more important than the destination.