Slip sliding away...
Thursday, July 19, 2012
It is entirely too easy to get off track, especially when your life is completely in the unknown zone. Based on how things go today in my now 3rd interview, I could be moving 3 hours away in a matter of 2 weeks or stuck here in the Bay for another 2 months. Either way, I'm moving my family to Chico, CA and very, very, very excited about that! Financially life has been tough but that is nothing new, just learning to re-juggle with what I have.
I've been in a roller coaster for a month now, or so it feels. My stomach is literally upset and completely in knots. Even though I know everything will be ok and that our decision to leave the Bay Area is for the best, its hard to swallow. I guess we feel like we failed some how but we just can't keep paying this much in rent and my kids deserve a more well rounded environment to be raised in. Oh well, I can't place the blame of our current economics on any one person, especially myself. The world is kind of an evil place and most of us who have been affected by this economy time and time again must realize we are not the evil ones or the powers that be. We had very little to do with the state of our current financial affairs, yet we feel the direct impact more than anyone else. All I know is that I am making decisions that are for the best for everyone in my family and that feels damn good...better than wealth.
So with that, I am wiped out and feeling completely out of alignment when it comes to my health. Its time to see a chiropractor, to get back to exercise and healthy eating. Two days of on the road "eating" has caused me to feel about 10 years older.
I'll be honest and say I am just too overwhelmed to even consider tracking my calories but I'm not too overwhelmed to feed myself healthy foods and get up and exercise in the morning. I got up today and did just that but I can tell my body is reacting to this past week in a bad way. Oh well, chin up, life is good either way!