I feel it starting already...
Thursday, July 19, 2012
I go back to school on the 1st for professional development. Then we have family conferences on the 9th and 10th, and kids come back on the 13th.
Because of this, I have to get my classroom unpacked, put together, and ready to go by the 1st of August. My team and I are the only ones who have been in to do that, save one other teacher who did hers in four hours at the beginning of July. She didn't have much to do--she teaches the middle school level and there's not a lot of "stuff" for that level to unpack or move around. I started the week after July 4 to do mine...And I'm glad I did. Now with other people in the building, they keep coming in to ask me about if I have this they can borrow, if I can help them move that, if I can do this for them or that... It's easier to be there alone....I can get more done.
In addition to this, I am trying to put together professional development for our staff, but my director said, oh just wait...we'll meet next week to do it. I don't think she understands that I can't do stuff at the last minute yet... I also can't wait till the week before to plan out our year. But no on else seems interested in planning. My teammates refuse to even discuss it... My director said she wants us to wait because "we'll have some time during the PD portions of the weeks before to do it." No...we won't.
What happens to teachers just before school starts is amazing. They are hyper focused on their classrooms....and pissed off when they aren't allowed to be in them putting them together. They are angry through every meeting, every activity, and every required discussion about anything that is NOT their classrooms. Some even refuse to participate and sit and pout.
I'm also trying to work with a friend to finish his master's project. (I'll advise all of you to NEVER DO THIS.) I seem to be doing more work on it than he is. He came over the other night so we could revise a full section of it and he stayed an hour....all of a sudden had to leave. And then he went out of town until tonight, when we are going to meet at 7, and really hope we can knock out the last part of this so I don't have to think about it anymore. He has one chapter left after this bit, and it needs to be finished and turned in prior to the 1st because I will not have any time to help him. I have had to be available whenever he wanted all summer long...and frankly, I'm sick of it. I spent the weekend in Woodland Park with Brad, and was made to feel guilty for going....even though I was only up there in the evening on Saturday and again in the evening on Sunday. He completely overbooked himself this summer and hasn't put much effort into it... When we started working together on this, he wrote, I edited what he wrote and didn't add anything, and the instructor gave no feedback other than stating that he wanted to fail him because the project was so bad... long story short, on my advice, he went to his advisor and asked to be moved into a different class. I completed my project like this two years ago and it's not a turn and and get a grade kind of thing--it requires contestant revisions and is a working document until the whole thing is finished....his instructor wasn't going about it that way--he felt that he should not have to give any feedback and just hand out grades for the various parts. So, my friend got into another instructor's class and she's been good for him. I just wish that he was putting this on the FRONT burner instead of the back...it's making my summer crap. A couple weeks ago his fiancee had a nervous breakdown about a whole bunch of things and has been struggling with that, so I'm trying to be mindful of that as well....part of me thinks he needs to request an extension because what's going on with her isn't allowing him to be present for this, and I understand that...but it's frustrating.
So needless to say I feel it starting already. The past two days have been awful despite my best intentions each morning food-wise... I ended up having to STAY at school until almost 6 Tuesday night (after getting there at 8 and working with no break and constant interruptions) to wait for others who wanted to go to run club. And I ate badly...chik-fil-a... After the run I ordered mozzarella sticks and the children who came with us ate mine... And then someone at our table drank half my beer on accident thinking it was theirs... And then I caught pictures of me from Tuesday night's run club...and that made me feel even worse. Everything I hate about my body was present and visible...in public...and now published to the web for everyone on earth to see.
Today will be busy... I need to spend 90% of today at school, then come home and shower, and then drive back to Old Colorado City for a going away party for someone I will miss like crazy that I can only spend about an hour at because then I have to drive BACK here to meet with my friend to work on his project (because there just isn't any other time...duh...TOMORROW?) I don't know how people run themselves like this all the time. I can't operate like this for long, with no time for me.
The only thing that is keeping me going is knowing that at 10am on Saturday, I get to go to yoga outside in the park. I don't have time to do anything else, but THAT I get to do. And god help anyone who tries to make me feel guilty for taking that one hour this week just for me.
And on that note I guess I should get out of here and go to school...