But I haven’t Quit Yet…
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Ok, yesterday was a letter to self. Self appreciates it even more today. Water aerobics got cancelled due to horrible storms here….booo, hiss! It occurred to me as I put on this leopard skirt today that I have had this skirt over 5 years and from the moment I purchased the skirt, it was too TIGHT! It’s not too tight today, I can pull the waistline and move my fingers out and around it several inches. I am sitting down and not holding in my stomach. NSV, likely but I haven’t quit yet.
I had a bad few days, few weeks at a time but I didn’t quit. I started this road in April and the scale hasn’t moved but I didn’t quit. I got slumped, I got depressed and I got back up. Does this make me a winner, I hope so but at the very least I want to be a contender in this fight. I want to be a force to be reckoned with. The working out has brought a new me, a happier me, a more content me. I like this.
I don’t always eat right and I don’t always get it right and hell I don’t even always show up for me but I haven’t quit yet. I am on blogs reading to get better, finding new recipes, getting new inspiration cause I haven’t quit. I tried to quit and failed miserably. So my 16 isn’t a 14 yet but damn it the 16 has never felt this good or sexy before. I work hard in other areas of my life like career and relationships and don’t quit there. I should be able to do the same with my weight as well because those areas also involve bad days, and rough patches and yet I stay working on them so should the process of getting me fit be any different? I say no!
I guess every time I put on the shoes after a day off or I do some activity or I eat just one meal right. It all adds up and eventually it pays off. I fight myself to be consistent and I keep myself from the poor me syndrome. I was never that type of girl…tough love rules for ME…so I give myself daily doses. I can be hard on me but usually it’s for the greater good. I could lie on the couch every day and let my shoes get dusty and waste my money spent on trying to be fit but that will NEVER happen. It’s a hard road to get to that goal but as I was reading a reminder of my weight that I am only 90 pounds away from my goal weight which puts me at Below Average for Body mass Index on the global scale according to this link ( www.bbc.co.uk/news/healt
) I got from SP friend Meretoni. I like seeing that in print cause the BMI for my current weight is freaking scary even with people telling me that I don’t need to lose that much, thank goodness for independent thinking. I haven’t quit yet and it’s been tough not too easy but every day that I don’t quit is a new chance for a beautiful surprise and the surprise today was this skirt because I haven’t quit yet! Wonder what tomorrow will bring….hmmm!