Thursday, July 19, 2012
title says it all this will probably be along blog as i havenīt blogged in along time,lol.did you miss me?the reason i havenīt been bloging is the same as usual i was feeling down and in hiding so if you she me hiding again come and give me a friendly or even a unfriendly kick in the butt
i have also been missing on my fitgirls team again which i feel very sorry and very,very guilty about.so guilty that i am wondering if i am being fair to the team still being the leader.will sending an email out to the fitgirls so they can decide if they still weant me as a leader or not.i want to be a good leader.i intend to be a good leader but sometimes life just gets in the way or should i say i let it get in the way.if i am honest it is more the last.what i also say to others i should listen too more myself like .it is not so much what life throws at you but how you deal with what life throws at you and to be honest i have not been dealing with it as well as i should have and could have.but enough of that i am no longer going to feel sorry for myself i am going to concentrate more on what i can do that what i canīt.i have been having problems with my vision which has got me down thinking i couldnīt do all my craft work etc.,as such my computer time was limited as if i am on for longer time my vision gets more blurred.it is abit better now i am having eye drops every hour but it is amasing how how vision problems effects your whole life and being you have constant headaches ,you get dizzy,you get tired and if it is really bad you get neucious.it makes it hard to think etc,etc.all that just because of a small vision problem.as i result i got behind on spark,behind on answering peoples blogs and the friend feed,forget it.so sorry to everyone.i have tried to keep up with blogs even if i was only answering with emotions.i have as i said at the beggining of this blog decided to concentrate more on what i can do than what i canīt.for example i have started doing my tapestry again 10 minutes at a time.i know if i do more than 10 minutes my eye will start to strain and cause problems.having said thati can do the 10 minutes more than once a day depending what else i have done in the day.just like my exerciseing i have been having problems with my left arm and elbow etc,also with the eye problem i had to stop my running as i was getting too dizzy.but i didnīt use that as an excuse not to do my exercise i just stepped it down.used my physio as my strength exercise ,walking instead of running but still getting the km in etc,etc.NOW if only i could say i was as consquent with my food i am sorry i wasnīt and i am not.i let the slightest tjhing effect me and used it as an excuse.i have been looseing and gaining the same few lbs for the last few months so much so that i have stopped even altering my ticker.well today is a new start and time to stop using and even finding excuses not to do things but find and look for reasons to do things.i eventually got the linda spangle book i had ordered yesturday (the 100 days of weight loss)so as of today i am going to start working through it.at the start of the book it suggest you list 10 reasons why you want to loose weight,write it down and when for some reason you feel your committment to loosing weight slip or you feel like giving up referr to your list for inspiration to continue.this exercise was actually easier than i thought it would be so here are my 10 reasons.
1 for health reasons
2 to have more energy
3 to be an example for my kids
4 to prove that i can do it to myself
5 to prove that i can do it to all the people that donīt believe i can
6 to feel better with and about myself
7 to look better
8 to have more confidence
9 the sense of achievement i will have
10 and above all to believe in my self and in my abilities that when i really put my mind to something anything is possible and in my power.
well i guess i covered everything explaining my reason for not being as often on spark now it is time to thank you all my lovely friends for all your support,understanding and love.it means alot to me especially as lately i havenīt been that supportive back.i will try and be more up to date on peoples blogs but i think the friend feed has to wait a while as i have so many active friends that i need at least 2-3 hours to go back a day on the friend feed and as i said i can go on computer but in small doses at a time infact i have had to have a break inbetween writeing this blog lol.take care everyone.keep smiling and above all keep on keeping on.remember you are WORTH.