Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Here I am 1 year smoke free and I should be so proud of myself. Well I am and I am not! In this last year taking the final step towards my healthy lifestyle, I have put 18 poinds back on. It is a combination of things
1. No smoking - that speeds the metabolism
2. WAY less exercising - I have developed major back issues that restrict me from exercising - gentle water aerobicsand easy yoga have been the extent of it
3. Way less motivation - can't see the light at the end of the tunnel past my belly4. Less commitment to the healthy lifestyle
It gets very depressing. Even when I was 215 lbs, I was always an active person. Not being able to move like I used to and be as active really has me down.
The ironic thing is that yesterday I got a letter from my company that they want to feature me as their wellness spokesperson. They have watched me transform my life from an obese smoker to what looks like a healthy vibrant person. I think that letter is what got me thinking about this. On the outside I look good but on the inside I am dying
Is this just my "fat mentality" playing with me? Is it that my whole life I don't picture myself as that healthy in shape person? Is it me again, sabotoging my own success?
So here I am reaching out to SPARKPEOPLE... The place where I found my healthy self and got the support I needed to get where I am.
Any feedback. words of encouragement etc are greatly appreciated.