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I need HELP!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Here I am 1 year smoke free and I should be so proud of myself. Well I am and I am not! In this last year taking the final step towards my healthy lifestyle, I have put 18 poinds back on. It is a combination of things
1. No smoking - that speeds the metabolism
2. WAY less exercising - I have developed major back issues that restrict me from exercising - gentle water aerobicsand easy yoga have been the extent of it
3. Way less motivation - can't see the light at the end of the tunnel past my belly4. Less commitment to the healthy lifestyle

It gets very depressing. Even when I was 215 lbs, I was always an active person. Not being able to move like I used to and be as active really has me down.

The ironic thing is that yesterday I got a letter from my company that they want to feature me as their wellness spokesperson. They have watched me transform my life from an obese smoker to what looks like a healthy vibrant person. I think that letter is what got me thinking about this. On the outside I look good but on the inside I am dying

Is this just my "fat mentality" playing with me? Is it that my whole life I don't picture myself as that healthy in shape person? Is it me again, sabotoging my own success?

So here I am reaching out to SPARKPEOPLE... The place where I found my healthy self and got the support I needed to get where I am.
Any feedback. words of encouragement etc are greatly appreciated.


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JNVENUTI 7/19/2012 7:49AM

    Thank you everyone - emoticon emoticon

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IFFYIFFY 7/18/2012 2:16PM

    That they want to feature says to me that what others see is someone who has made changes for the better and you are inspiring. You quit smoking, that is HUGE. That you are having back issues and still try/want to exercise is HUGE. Two HUGE changes in your life that you should be proud of. Maybe focus on healing instead of weight loss for a while. Sometimes a different way of looking at things can help. There is a light at the end of that tunnel but sometimes we just need shorter tunnels to get through to the end goal.

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BRENJET 7/18/2012 9:24AM

    I completely agree with Peter...YOU are an excellent wellness spokesperson--YOU QUIT SMOKING!!! That's one of the hardest things to do...ever. I quit on May 7th and think about it everyday. Use that same tenacity, that same self motivation, that same determination that you use to stay smoke free to make those little changes that add waaaaaaaay up. YOU can do this. Be super proud of your accomplishments. Inspire those people in your company--it will help to re-inspire you. See yourself the way they see you. You are amazing! emoticon

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DLKGOSLING 7/18/2012 8:54AM

    I gave up smoking in Jan 12, and now I'm looking to reduce the weight, first time on a serious weight loss programme, First of all remember you've cracked the smoking , don't under-estimate that, in fact that in itself would make you a valuable wellness spokesperson. Look at all the weight you've lost, you just need to get back in the saddle so start today bit by bit.
Good luck with it Peter

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