Wednesday, July 18, 2012
...and guess what? It worked!
I was so anxious to weigh in today because I just KNEW it was going to be under 200. Well, I couldn't believe when 200.6 was staring back at me. I wanted to pick up the scale and throw it. I was upset, I was angry, and then I was simply sad. I logged it and looked at last week. Ok, I was down half a pound. But I'm off track to meet my goal for Sept 1 when we have a wedding to go to. I spent about 30 minutes wallowing in frustration about this. Then I realized I needed to get my butt out the door to drop off my car to get new tires. It was on my way back that I changed my tune. I decided that I will not be upset about that, and will be proud and excited about my progress. That made a huge difference in the rest of my day. I could be here writing about the poor choices I made, but because I made myself think positively about my weigh in, I am not here to tell you bad news.
I live literally less than 3 blocks from the dealership, as the crow flies. Historically I have scheduled things so I can stay or so I can get a ride. At 8:45 it was already kind of icky out. I know this because I walked home. My only "trouble" was I couldn't go the long way because of some major road construction. So I hoofed the short cut home with out much thought about it. The hill barely gave me much trouble, barely. I had considered walking to the gym, doing some weights and walking back. That would certainly give me plenty of exercise as it is 3 miles or so each way. But it was icky and I don't do hot and humid well. Instead I decided to exercise to videos at home. And I did. I have the Spark 28 day bootcamp video which I did the warm up and cardio blast. Then I did a video from the site that was an arm toning with resistance band. I did 33 minutes of cardio/strength training in one. It was great. I may work some more of those videos in.
If you haven't noticed by this point in the day I had kind of gotten over the scale thing. Wise words from PUNKY100 kept passing through my head...I really only was 0.7 pounds that is seven tenths of a pound from being in ONEderland. It will happen, I totally got this. It has been four years since I was in the 190s. It took me four years to gain 25 pounds. It may take me 5 months to lose 25 pounds, but I WILL do it.
After I realized that and realized I chose to walk from the dealership and I chose to work out even though circumstances weren't perfect, I realized I am making progress and I will be successful. I lost half a pound even though I had sushi twice this past week and I had lasagna. Half a pound was great!
That set me up to make some better choices through the day. I walked to pick up my car. I was cutting times a bit short, but the tires NEEDED to be changed (oops!). I considered, very briefly that it would be so much easier to just go through the drive thru for lunch. I didn't do that. Instead, I went to the grocery store and got a salad bar salad and bought a bottle of dressing for at work. I got some beef jerky for a snack and grabbed some veggies and hummus as I was out the door. I had left a frozen meal at work for supper, so I was set for the day. No fast food, no second thoughts, no longing for crap. I did it and didn't think twice about it.
There was a bag of tortilla chips open in the office area at work. I walked by it every time and didn't even think about wanting one. There wasn't any salsa or guac anyway. Not tempted, even a little bit.
At 5:30 I was considering getting a bottle of pop. I considered and considered and tried to justify it, and when I realized I was trying to justify it, I just walked away and decided I didn't really want, let a lone need it. Yup, I did that.
And perhaps most notable....Hubby mentioned his meal was "lots of almonds" and cherries. My rule has been that he can eat any of the food in the house, he just needs to tell me if he finishes something and he cant leave 5 almonds in the can. Well, he did leave about an ounce of each flavor we have. He also did tell me. But I was so frustrated. I have gone through the trouble of making meals in advance and freezing them, and getting them out so he always has lunch and dinner for the 3 nights a week I have class. I did all of this and tonight was the second night he didn't eat them. I was hurt and upset. I already had the ice cream in my hand before he told me about it. (I get "soft serve treat" made by Kemps so I can still eat chocolate ice cream for less calories - snoblitz - yummy!) I had already planned to eat the whole cup of it "because I could." Well, I calmed myself down and looked at my nutrition tracker for the day. Sure, I could afford it calorie wise, but did I really need that much? Did I need an extra 50g of carbs for the day? Well, as I thought about it I decided I would eat one serving and be done. And that is what I did. I put the rest in the freezer, put the spoon in the dishwasher and went to apologize to my hubby for getting upset even though he did the things I asked him to do if he was going to eat almonds.
So, since I am in a pretty good place right now, I am going to make my to do list so I don't start to panic about all of the things I need to do in the next 4 days. I have a TON of homework in the two classes I am taking, but I think I can handle it. I just need to keep on top of what needs to be done and what my deadlines are.
I will just keep swimming and I will keep seeing progress. I will keep on track and I will do great things.
Do me a favor, will one of you bottle my extra positivity and give it back when I really need some?