You know what? I'm not a huge fan of roller-coaster rides! Up, down and even upside down... you don't know where you are anymore!

I've been on a roller-coaster lately in my weightloss journey. A small one, but still annoying enough for me to call it quit. Enough of that ride!

My weight have fluctuate in the last weeks. I'm so close to be in Onederland, but it seems like I will never get there! I weigh myself "officially" on sunday mornings, but I often step on the scale later in the week. Well for the last 2 weeks, my sunday weigh-in was great, but on monday morning, I was 4 pounds heavier! So in the past 2 weeks, I've been losing the same 4 pounds, twice!!! So frustrating!

I want to get to Onederland so bad! I must say I did not made the best choices lately... I overate some days, and I've been slacking on fitness. But it's so hot outside! With the humidity, it makes it quite hard to exercise in my no A/C 3rd floor apartment.

So sunday, I was down to 202.2 (-0.6 pound since last week, or -4 pounds, depending if I count monday weigh-in!). Than yesterday morning I was up to 206 lb. *?O*?#&?@&&!% So pissed off!

I decided to feast monday, because hey what a good idea to stay in control (NOT!).
At lunch, I was starving. I decided to go enjoy my lunch break at the park, watching the ducks in the pond. But I passed by in front of a bakery and decided to get myself a small bread, to eat a little (again, wow great idea!) In the bakery, there was little bags of meringues. Of course, I was so hungry I couldn't resist, so I grabbed a bag along with the bread.

I ate it all. The bread and all the meringues (about 12 pieces!) Talk about a good lunch.

I felt awful after that lunch break. I then took the stupidest decision of the day: I decided to purge myself, to get rid of all those bad calories... I had never done that before and believe me, I won't do it ever again!!! I felt stupid and gross and not lighter at all!

After work, I was heading to my parents house and at the subway station, I grabbed a bag of Miss Vickies Sea Salt and Malt vinegar because I had not eat any veggies so fat (kidding!). At my parents, I ate some more (hot-dogs, chicken kebabs, a little risotto and cake!)

So I won't ever try to feast again (except for religious reasons sometimes around Easter)

Today, I woke up with a plan! I really want to be at 192-190 lbs for my birthday on Sept. 10th. I have 8 weeks to get there. And I won't reach that goal by sitting around eating crap. I getting my focus back, I'm putting my energy in those 10 pounds I want to lose in 8 weeks. It's a reasonable goal, and the time frame is not long so I can keep it up.

I'm gonna get back to jogging. With all the heat lately it's been hard to jog. I would love to find the discipline to get up earlier on the morning to do my run, but I'm not sure I will be able to, so I'm not putting pressure on myself. As long as I move, run, and do my ST, I should be able to shed the pounds!

Eating right is so easy during summer with all the fresh fruits and veggies. I will now go to the farmers market once or twice a week, to always have variety and freshness in my freggies.

I really want to keep going. If I stick with my plan, I know I can do it!

Again I wanted to do a short blog and end up with a novel!