Tuesday, July 17, 2012
I weighed myself today and I'm down 3 pounds from when I visited my doctor last Wednesday. This is encouraging.
My doctor is really straight forward with me..."so what happen to your losing weight?" Sigh...because I've gained in the last few months and she called me out on it. I know what to do but haven't been trying. I can't even say I've failed because I don't even give myself the start I need.
I checked my sheet of vital stats when I got home later and realized that while my blood pressure was in the range of normal, it was still high normal (which has never been before.) Same goes with my breathing rate/resting heart rate, normal but high normal.
For the 1st time, I was actually sort of scared. I know I tell myself that I need to lose weight and get healthy...it will help with my snoring, and acid reflux and depression but I never really went beyond those basics because I was one of the lucky ones who was overweight but didn't have HIGH (Insert Medical Condition Here) and there the numbers were staring at me.
This was last Wednesday. Of course then the car accident with my husband happened on Sunday and really kicked me into reality. Mostly because I was scared for my husband and his health. We need to do this together.
Only Day 2 but I at least have been tracking my food intake, which is huge for me. Exercise hasn't really started, outside of my hour in the garden each night. It's too darn hot and muggy. And I'm in a funk still where I just want to sleep. This too shall pass...
Baby steps. Tracking food is a HUGE step for me. I'm going to try to not beat myself up when I goof...but I know this is hard for me. I want ALL or NOTHING. I need to do everything right or I end up angry at myself for not having more willpower and then stop trying all together. Need to break this habit, stat.