Well, I got all my assignments done (barely) by deadline last night, and I got an A on my philo exam (barely). I spent 2 hours studying for the sociology exam, only to find out that it had been pushed back to friday/monday this week >:( Which meant that I blew 2 hours on that when I could've been working on the current event paper. Irritating. But, by the grace of God (thank you, Jesus) I got it finished. Idk how I'll do on it, since the directions were totally vague, but it's done, anyway.

I had a mommy breakfast with a girl from church today. She is exactly where I was 4-5 months ago, wanting desperately to get healthy but not committed to making it happen yet. We talked for over an hour while we ate (we ordered the same thing), I halved mine up and didn't eat any of the pancakes (brought it all home for the kids). She's almost ready to make the commitment, I think. We talked about counting calories and how it's the only thing that worked for her, too, and how she really hasn't been exercising and how she'd been battling depression. I offered to start walking with her a couple of times a week if she wanted to, and told her about sp and how it (and you guys) was helping me.

Anyway, while we were there, I noticed the people around us, eating, shoveling food in their mouths like they only had 90 seconds to eat. People barely talking or taking the time to enjoy their food. No one drinking water but us. And almost everyone was overweight, including us. And the portions were huge! My dish came with 2 eggs, 3 bacon, probably 1 cup of hashbrowns, and 3 pancakes. I ate half the eggs, 2 bacon and half the hashbrowns. Everything else came home. And I was satisfied! I mean, I could've eaten more (and may have, if I hadn't been talking so much, lol) but I know I'd've been miserable if I had. Plus I was trying to make sure I was an encouragement to my friend, to show her that it could be done (we've gone to church together for 4 years, she knows how much I used to eat!). I think maybe this mindset will help me when I want to overeat... you know, as a Christian we aren't supposed to do things around people who have a problem with those things (like we shouldn't smoke around someone who's trying to quit, drink around an alcoholic, curse around someone who's trying not to, etc. which is why so many people don't do it at all, bc you just never know who may have a silent struggle with something), so if someone has a problem with food (like I have, or my friend), shouldn't I avoid causing them to stumble in that way? Should I bring cake and ice cream to a diabetic? No!! By no means!!

Anyway, just my thoughts. Much like the comparing my food addiction to the substance addiction of my ex-husband, maybe this mindset will be a positive reinforcement of these habits. Oh, and on a funny note, there was a picture of a big ole salad on the table and my mouth started watering... oh my goodness it looked so good!!! A SALAD, are you kidding me???

I ended up eating some junk last night (stress, I'm sure, since it was all carbs). Boo for not sticking with clean foods, but yay for staying within my calorie limits. I was only at 892 calories at 7pm and I was afraid to stay that low, so I started eating a little just to bump it up to 1200... yeah, but then I didn't stop and had nachos. Boo. I'm still a work in progress.

Okay, off to read my sociology assignment. I'm not having another monday like yesterday with all that work to do before midnight. It's just too much stress. Back on track!!

Have a great day :)