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Tuesday, July 17, 2012



I have not fallen. I am still here.

This morning I weighed 212 pounds, which means I have gained back 14.
That is the hardest thing for me to write. It is so hard because I haven't felt like this in over a year and a half. The feeling of being lost. The feeling of not knowing what I'm doing. Am I doing the right things? The things that I am eating, can I eat them for the rest of my life? I do know one thing, I do not want to go back to the unhappy person I was before.



So yesterday I decided I would start completely over. I love the spark app, but I decided to download myfitnesspal, just for something different for a while. I want this so bad. I think slowly but surely my mind is going back to the right place. Yesterday was great, today is going even better.

I can do this. We can do this.



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  • v BRIKO2011
    You can do this Michelle! Stay focused on where you're heading, not what's behind you. Build on your new habits one step (even if it's one millimeter) at a time. Be kind to yourself and keep going forward! You are amazing.
    1499 days ago
  • v MAVERICK59
    I too have gained back about 10 pounds. it is scary wondering if it will all come back.
    I am so glad you are finding your way back from feeling out of control.
    Hugs
    1499 days ago
  • v KERLIN26
    Keep going Michelle! You can and will do this and we will all be here cheering you on!!!
    1499 days ago
  • v MUFFIY831
    Great attitude. You CAN do this!!!!
    1499 days ago
  • v BETHSWORLD
    THE MOST IMPORTANT THING MICHELLE...IS THAT YOU DIDN'T GIVE UP! YOU ARE STILL HERE!!!

    YOU ARE SO WORTH EVERYTHING GREAT IN LIFE! AND YOU WILL GET THERE...WE ALL GO UP AND DOWN....WE ARE HERE FOR YOU SWEETIE!

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    1499 days ago
  • v TAMENI2
    Love that, turn a setback into a comeback! Way to go. Keep looking forward and take 1 day at a time. You can do this. emoticon emoticon
    1499 days ago
  • v SUNRISE14
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    1499 days ago
  • v EVER-HOPEFUL
    i love the upbeatness of your blog even ifit started on a down beat.you can do this love i am also starting afresh lol.together we have to succeed. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1499 days ago
  • v RAINBOWMF
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    Mary
    1499 days ago
  • v KIBAISREADY
    YEP A SETBACK TO A COMEBACK! OH MICHELLE, I DO KNOW WHERE YOU ARE COMING FROM EVEN THOUGH OUR SITUATIONS ARE DIFFERENT I DO UNDERSTAND WHERE YOU ARE COMING FROM GIRL. WHEN YOU WORK SO HARD TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF, THEN BAM YOUR SMACK WITH A DETOUR, AN ISSUE,SOMETHING THAT'S OUT OF YOUR CONTROL, ETC.

    WHAT EVERYTHING IN LIFE WE ALL HAVE TO ADJUST AND JUST THINK OF IT AS YOUR ADJUSTMENT PERIOD A TEMPORARY HOLD/SETBACK.

    YOU DID IT ONCE GIRL AND I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN. YOU KNOW THE MIND IS A POWERFUL THING! IT CAN CONQUER YOU, IT CAN HAVE YOU FEELING DEFEATED ON THE OTHER HAND IT CAN HAVE YOU THINKING I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT, AND I'M GOING TO DO IT.

    IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHAT WE DECIDE. SO DUST IT OFF, REFOCUS, AND I KNOW YOU CAN CONQUER THIS!

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    1499 days ago
  • v CDOEFER
    I love MFP's mobile app and use it obsessively. I find the bar code reader thingy to be especially fun :-) Hope you like it too!
    1499 days ago
  • v ARUNNINGKAT
    emoticon emoticon Glad you are inspired and determined. Me too!
    1499 days ago
  • v JSTHIESS
    you CAN do this:)
    you WILL do this:)
    you ARE doing this!

    This isn't something that goes away, it's something that we have to keep working and doing forever! being healthy:) you've gained so many great habits already and i just know that you will keep going and pushing because you are a FIGHTER1
    1499 days ago
  • v SBNORMAL
    You can do it, it takes a while to get maintenance that is what I hear, so hang in there!!
    1499 days ago
  • v AWESOMEKATY
    What a lovely way to look at things! With that attitude you can do anything!!

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    1499 days ago
  • v BEACHWALKER86
    Being truthful with your self is the first step! Doing what will work best for you is good too. You are so on the right track!
    BTW: I follow you on facebook and that is how I saw the link to this blog; thanks for putting it there.
    1499 days ago
  • v DRKEYEZ820
    I gained back too girly. I was 164 at one pt.... now im seeing 171 on the scale. Im angry, but im still doing the same flippin stuff. Yesterday i started my day well, i waited to long for lunch and it threw me off, i mean COMPLETELY off tilt for the remainder of the day. sigh....
    Its also the week of Tom which doesnt help.... , i always write down my food, and how many pts it is. Yesterday i only went up to lunch....
    Today i wrote out my whole day, and i think today im gonna succeed, im AIMING to succeed.
    Thats all we can do is TRY, everyday is a new day, we might get knocked down, we may get bloodied up and beaten in the process of the fight, but we WILL win the trophy in the end.
    1499 days ago
  • v VICKYMARIEC
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  • v BRENDABUNNY
    emoticon glad your here emoticon
    1499 days ago
  • v NEW-CAZ
    I hope your new app helps hun, one step at a time you'll get there emoticon emoticon
    1499 days ago
  • v SHRINK_U
    emoticon You have come so far. I love your new profie pic :)
    1499 days ago
  • v WHITNEYLD
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  • v ELLISH
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    Hang in there. That lost feeling sucks!! I know, but when you are found it's the best feeling. By looking at your page, you already know what this like too! :) You've come a long way. I hope to accomplish what you already have!!!
    1499 days ago
  • v ILOVEMALI
    We can do this. I am on vacation and am doing poorly with food management. My goal is to not put on 5 pounds on this 2- week vacation. What a stupid goal. But, I'm telling you, anything less will be a victory!
    1499 days ago
  • v SARAHJ19
    emoticon emoticon emoticon I am right here with you Michelle! I have gained back quite a bit of weight and today is day 2 also for me! We can and we will do it! Let's do it girl!

    Here is to a healthy, active and happy day!
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    1499 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/17/2012 1:15:42 PM
  • v MENNOLY
    Good Luck! Remember that this journey we are on has no end. If your new app helps you stay on track better that is fantastic. The whole point is that we need to do some sort of tracking and at least in my case, it has to continue for the rest of my life. Accountability requires tracking. emoticon emoticon
    1499 days ago
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