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Tuesday, July 17, 2012



I have not fallen. I am still here.

This morning I weighed 212 pounds, which means I have gained back 14.
That is the hardest thing for me to write. It is so hard because I haven't felt like this in over a year and a half. The feeling of being lost. The feeling of not knowing what I'm doing. Am I doing the right things? The things that I am eating, can I eat them for the rest of my life? I do know one thing, I do not want to go back to the unhappy person I was before.



So yesterday I decided I would start completely over. I love the spark app, but I decided to download myfitnesspal, just for something different for a while. I want this so bad. I think slowly but surely my mind is going back to the right place. Yesterday was great, today is going even better.

I can do this. We can do this.



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PIXIECHIC1 7/18/2012 2:04PM

  just keep coming back! You can do this! i weight 239 and have not lost in 2 mo. something is up, but i don't know what - but i know i don't want this and will continue to keep at it - as you will too! You are here and you are letting people know where you are at and that is a good thing. Continue to let people in and continue to do what works. The tracker - so important to keep honest. To be a winner at this do what the winners do. Follow the people that are successful at this and you will be successful also.Good luck!

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MOMMY445 7/18/2012 12:45PM

    you can do this! you are worth it!

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HEARTS116 7/18/2012 12:32PM

    You can do it!!!
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BARBARAROSE54 7/18/2012 12:03PM

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TERRIJ7 7/18/2012 11:54AM

    As long as you're here and you keep trying, you're in the right place. Don't give up--it's a marathon, not a sprint--just keep taking those little steps and you'll get there.

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PATRICIAANN46 7/18/2012 11:40AM

  Good for YOU!!! emoticon

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GALINAZ 7/18/2012 11:38AM

    It's a major shock to your body and mind with your heart issues and maybe you are experiencing the "loss" of who you thought you were. Be kind and gentle to yourself as you grieve and take it one day at a time, you can do this.

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LINDAK25 7/18/2012 11:32AM

    You CAN do this. Some days are easier. Some days I tell myself that I just have to get through this day, this hour, or this moment. Like the ad says, "Just do it." That's what I'm doing today. You know what to do.

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IAMAGEMLOVER 7/18/2012 11:02AM

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JUSGETTENBY42 7/18/2012 10:55AM

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SAINTBETH 7/18/2012 10:34AM

    Don't give up. We CAN do this!

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CLIMBERS_ROCK 7/18/2012 10:31AM

    I'm in the same boat. I reached my goal last year and now I'm up 10 pounds. I can't seem to make progress. I do believe in both of us. We can do it if we just keep our eye on the end goal and stick with SP. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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VOLLEYGIRL77 7/18/2012 10:30AM

    You can do it!!!

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SJKENT1 7/18/2012 10:15AM

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Cheering you on to your victory!!

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TYANDCARSMOM 7/18/2012 10:03AM

    Michelle,

You are not a failure... you are an inspiration. Your hosnesty & spirit are amazing. We all have had set-backs, the trick is to get back in the fight. And by posting on here & your FB page... proves you still have some fight in you!

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SPECIALGURL7 7/18/2012 9:34AM

    It is like riding a bike. If you fall off, you get back on. The only way you fail is not to try. You continue to try, no failure. Just keep pushing.

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ELLENBERRY 7/18/2012 8:52AM

    You can do it! You are amazing!!

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KTISFOCUSED 7/18/2012 8:40AM

    Michele,
I took a peek at your sparkpage and girl, you have done amazing. You have not failed, you are just readjusting and that is ok. You are searching for what you can attain for life which is so important in the long run. Also, let's face it. We get in ruts and so I applaud your decision to try something new. That will get you re-excited for your journey and you don't have to leave SP and the support of friends. You can just add the new one and have even more support. You are a beautiful girl with so many blessings and I personally am so impressed with what you have done so please don't beat yourself up, you are a definite success story and no one can take that away from you.

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TRYINGHARD54 7/18/2012 8:33AM

    I have fallen on and off the wagon so many times I had to get a new wagon. lol So, I understand where your coming from. But the most important part is. You haven't given up... emoticon

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MILLEDGE2 7/18/2012 8:31AM

    Congratulations on hanging in there and taking steps to reverse the trend back into the direction which will bring you health! emoticon

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JANEMARIE77 7/18/2012 8:22AM

    you are not giving up that's what matters change is not bad its needed find motivation where ever you can emoticon

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NEWMOM20121 7/18/2012 8:21AM

    You have the tools to turn this around. I know you can do this, look how far you have came. We are the crowd and we are cheering you on.

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DJSHIP46 7/18/2012 8:21AM

    We've all had setbacks, but you're in the right place now... just hang in there and emoticon together emoticon

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SIZE8NOTSOMUCH 7/18/2012 8:17AM

    I too have fallen off the wagon in the past, the best part is you KNOW you fell, and are getting back up!
One foot in front of the other... Slow and steady. You CAN do this.
We all can. With our friends and our faith!
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BESSHAILE 7/18/2012 8:06AM

    You will not fail unless you quit. but I can see you are not a quitter.

go girl!

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TONYVAND1 7/18/2012 8:00AM

  emoticon emoticon you can do it set small goals and allow your spark friends to hold you accountable

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LIN1111 7/18/2012 7:27AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I have to give you alot of credit...starting over is never easy and lots of people just give up...

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GARDENCHRIS 7/18/2012 7:22AM

    At least you are NOT giving up! We have all had setbacks here.... the difference is that we get right back on track and NEVER give up! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GRAMPIAN 7/18/2012 6:36AM

  Good luck! emoticon

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PENOWOK 7/18/2012 6:29AM

    We know you can do this!! You've done it before and can do it again...better than ever this time!

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KIPPER15 7/18/2012 6:26AM

    Slip up and backslides happen. You can do this. emoticon emoticon

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LANNIEMANUEL 7/18/2012 6:14AM

    emoticon emoticon some times we all fall back. but keep getting up is the best thing. glad you realized that.

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REGILIEH 7/18/2012 6:10AM

    YOU CAN do it!!!

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SUSANK16 7/18/2012 4:59AM

  Hang in there - it will happen for you

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SHAYLAGETFIT 7/18/2012 12:33AM

  You have such heart Michelle! I only wish that I had as much motivation or will power or whatever it is that drives you to push so hard every day and face the realities of your choices. You will make it. I know you will because you have come so far and I have read so much on your progress from the highs to the lows and wow! Just wow! There is nothing else to describe it and I am so proud to know that there truly are people who are willing to give it their all. So when things get rough, remember to let someone know and that we here on SP are always gonna be here for you no matter what! Hugs and many well wishes sent your way!

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FRANCES-AGAPE 7/17/2012 11:50PM

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With your attitude
Michelle, you
WILL SUCCEED

You just had a
temporary setback
with the surgery
and all

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Like your new main pic -
it shows more of your
pretty face

Hang in there !

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BLESSINGS !


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INTRIGUEDKI 7/17/2012 10:59PM

    It's crazy, we are in the same space. I am at 212 and I am ready to be under 200 and ready to be back winning like I was this past winter and spring. We can so do it!

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BETHEUNICORN 7/17/2012 10:54PM

    Same thing happened to me. :( But what matters is that we dusted ourselves off & got back in the game. We WILL do this!

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CORINA-MOMOF4 7/17/2012 9:22PM

    one step at a time - you CAN do it!

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SHIRE33 7/17/2012 8:55PM

    You know so much more now! You will get into the groove so much faster this time. Looking forward to the inevitable progress reports. :)

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SASSYLJB 7/17/2012 8:24PM

    you will do this and you can do this I believe in you. Life happens and things change. The positive is that you realized, and are turning it around!

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TANYA602 7/17/2012 7:51PM

    You've made the move back, you know what has worked in the past, and you have come so far from the woman in the picture posted at the start of this blog. Your new profile pic is beautiful.
Stick around. You are truly making a difference and working towards leading a happier and healthier life.
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MANLEYSANDY 7/17/2012 7:45PM

    You just have to take it one day at a time! I know you can do it!

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WINNIE1978 7/17/2012 7:39PM

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KOSMOS11 7/17/2012 7:18PM

    We all struggle... Try to cook really delicious meals with lots of veggies. Only this actually saves me from eating a lot of sugar or junk. If you make a really tasty stir fry with all the things you like in it, the temptation to eat something intensely sugary will go away. For real. Get some magazines like Cooking light or Bon Appetit for the library and go through them looking for ideas. It helps me a lot. I just don't have the imagination that chef's have and magazines offer a lot. Hang in there! Don't give up!!!!

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AEROGIRL1594 7/17/2012 6:57PM

    I'm so proud of you! We all have our set backs, but it is what we learn from them that make us truly great! I know that you can get back on track, it is only just a matter of time! Good luck!!
xoxo,
Emma
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