I took a couple months and changed some things for the worse and somethings for the better.

Here's the better:
I have low testosterone but haven't been purposefully dealing with it in a correct way but about 6 or 8 weeks ago finally got back on medication and have actually been taking it regularly. I know this has made me gain muscle (yay!) but it also has made the scale go up, etc.

Also in the last 1-2 weeks I have taken up a very good dental cleaning regime, including waterpik, flossing and brushing every night before bed. I know I need some good professional care too but this is a good start until I can get back on my school plan this Fall.

The worse:
I'm up to 214.2 again, which is terrible. I know not all of it is muscle!

So what to do?
I've been reading this really good book on forming habits and have had some good thoughts. My routines need a lot of work to improve not just my physical health but my mental health, too.

My goals include:
-Get more & better sleep
-Stop drinking alcohol totally
-get properly hydrated every single day
-improve dental health
-keep my living and working spaces clean
-lose weight - my goal is 175 lbs. My original goals have always been 155 but I notice that I feel pretty good at 175 and can re-goal from there.

So I'm looking down the barrel at 40lbs of weight to lose AGAIN.

SparkPeople and the journaling has always helped so I will do that and post on my progress.

I also desperately need more physical activity, but never *feel* like I have the time. I always have too many "tabs" open--metaphorically, etc. In the end productivity and health will always be related, in part because stress is also so related to weight gain for me. I've been stressed about money and work lately.

Ok, one day at a time.

Today, I am well rested and feel motivated. I will hydrate properly. I will take my medication. I will eat the things that I know will make me feel good. I will get to bed at the right time.

Tomorrow, I will weight in again to see how I did!