Monday, July 16, 2012
Hey! I'm not much of a blogger, but today I feel as if there are certain thoughts that I'd love to express to an encouraging community, and sparkpeople is obviously the perfect venue!
Since reaching a healthy BMI for my height and weight in early June, I have become only that much more serious about my health and fitness. As I've stepped up my commitment, my quality of life has improved and my overall lifestyle has become wholly altered for the better (also, I've lost a few more pounds, which is cool, too, but not as important as it used to be). All of this commitment is ironic considering that I am currently in an incredibly transitional phase in my life right now. Really, it's the one of the biggest transitions of my life thus far. I graduated from college as an undergrad in May with my bachelor's degree. My college was located not too far from my family's house, so I commuted to school while continuing to live at home.
In March, I was given an offer to attend graduate school in Ohio, with full waiver of tuition/fees, a teaching assistantship, and a large stipend for my living expenses. On August 19th, I will be leaving my hometown, my parents' house, my job (which I've been at for over two years), and my friends and family to go live in a whole new state in a single-person apartment while enrolled in a highly stressful graduate program where I know hardly anyone. I'm not worried about making new friends, and I'm actually really excited to live on my own (especially since I won't have my parents' unhealthy groceries present to tempt me). However, the thing that does worry me is whether or not I will be able to maintain the balance. I did a great job when I was an undergrad, but graduate school is such a mystery and I'm not sure what to expect.
Yet at the same time, I am not too worried because... I feel like I've changed. The things that used to make me slip up or break down don't affect me anymore. I'm an adult. I'm responsible. I'm pragmatic. And I love it. And really, I owe so much to sparkpeople, as well as to the positive influences in my own life. For instance, I spent this past weekend visiting my incredible cousin. Before this visit, her and I had never met, due to the fact that our fathers (who are brothers) have been estranged from one another for almost 30 years. She has an office job, but she is very serious about yoga, and wants to become certified for yoga therapy, which I found so inspiring. Being temporarily immersed in her life made me reflect on my own life and on sparkpeople, and I realized that there were two aspects of this new lifestyle of mine that I have come to love more than anything else:
1. Nutrition/Healthy Eating/Eating Clean: This is something that I feel has made me a better, happier person overall. I study nutrition now as much as my major. While still a novice, I would love to potentially pursue something more related to nutrition in the future.
2. Pilates: I can't help it. I. Love. Pilates! It is my exercise niche. I originally tried it out as a fun experiment, to see if it would actually strengthen my core as much as it claimed it would. I was feeling/seeing the difference after only a few days, and I found my regular pilates routines to be extremely relaxing. I certainly plan to immerse myself in further studies of pilates.
These two loves of my newly-fit life are what reassure me during this transitional period. Instead of feeling like work, I find myself effortlessly immersed in this lifestyle. I don't do it because I have to. I do it because I can't help myself. Don't get me wrong, it took a lot of work to get the point where I could feel this way. But now that I'm here, I am never going back.