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This Past Week

Monday, July 16, 2012

I was able to hit ONEDERLAND! I also got some optimistic news from my new hematologist. Then you add to the mix Alan’s daughter is going to be living with us soon. You’d think I was on cloud 9 right now!! Eh, not so much. Yeah I was excited on Thursday when I saw that number on the scale. I was excited that afternoon when the doctor told me, “Kristina there’s no reason why you should be on blood thinners the rest of your life.” Yet, I hardly exercised and my food choices weren’t that great.

Yeah I know what you’re thinking “Everyone has bad days or weeks. Pick yourself up and move forward.” Yeah, I know I need to take some of my own advice. I just don’t know what my deal is. I feel like I’m neglecting things right now and I honestly don’t know why I’m feeling that way. I’m just a hot confusing mess right now, LOL.

Oh, then how could I forget we’re getting ready to leave for Vegas on Thursday. I get to see Garth Brooks on Friday night! I’ve wanted to see him ever since I was very young. I think its maybe because I’m so overwhelmed with so much happy stuff I just can’t process it all. Who knows… Maybe I’m just losing my mind.

I’m freaking out a tad because I’m going to have to figure out eating while in Vegas. I’ve looked over menus for the restaurants at our hotel and I have a rough idea of what I’m going to do. Part of me just wants to say screw it and not even worry about it. Then the other part of me is like “ARE YOU KIDDING?!?!?” I know I need to watch what I’m doing or before I’ll know it I’ll see that damn 200 on the scale again. I hate that when I want to enjoy something I always have to stop and think about food options. Sometimes I’m really good at it and other times I just want to throw a temper tantrum like a little kid, kicking and screaming and not want to do the “right” thing.

No point to the blog. I’m just writing down all the ramblings going through my head.
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    Hope this doesn't sound silly, but ever since losing my husband I get nervous and "act out" when things go really right. It's like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I was in Heaven with my late husband and had just said how I felt happy for the first time in my life and was content with exactly where I was. It's as if I'm afraid of saying that out loud again because it may trigger another tragedy.

    I keep moving forward and am working hard to live in the moment, but still struggle with this.

    Ring any bells for you?

    Anyway, hang in there and remember that it's the journey and not the destination. Small setbacks will not ruin you if you stay strong over time.

    My best to you!
    1848 days ago
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