Monday, July 16, 2012
So I had this weird dream last night and I woke up pretty happy it was just a dream. It was one of those dreams that when you wake up you are happy it wasnt real and then when you go back to sleep; you seem to just pick up where you stopped before? Anyway, that is how my morning started. Telling myself that the dream could have happened so now that it didnt; just get up and start my day on a positive note. It has been a while since I posted. Drama just seems to follow me in every turn. I lost another best friend in March; my horse Rocky (my spark picture); it was his time but it has been very hard to accept. Yes, went to therapy and yes it helped; but I think the only way I am going to get through this is to do it on my own and take each day as a challenge to get the most out of it. So each day I get up and take a deep breath and tell myself that I am going to have a great day. Some days are better than others; some days I dont want to get out of bed; but then I realize that I am the one choosing to feel sad; and it is up to me to try to change those feelings. So today is Monday...so far it hasnt been too bad. Took my friend out to lunch for her birthday and brought her a cake. My daughter is taking her finals for the summer session in college and will be expecting me to celebrate with her this evening with a beer by the pool; my rose bushes are hanging in there and have provided me with really beautiful red roses despite the heat; these are the things I focus on now.