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Monday, July 16, 2012

So I had this weird dream last night and I woke up pretty happy it was just a dream. It was one of those dreams that when you wake up you are happy it wasnt real and then when you go back to sleep; you seem to just pick up where you stopped before? Anyway, that is how my morning started. Telling myself that the dream could have happened so now that it didnt; just get up and start my day on a positive note. It has been a while since I posted. Drama just seems to follow me in every turn. I lost another best friend in March; my horse Rocky (my spark picture); it was his time but it has been very hard to accept. Yes, went to therapy and yes it helped; but I think the only way I am going to get through this is to do it on my own and take each day as a challenge to get the most out of it. So each day I get up and take a deep breath and tell myself that I am going to have a great day. Some days are better than others; some days I dont want to get out of bed; but then I realize that I am the one choosing to feel sad; and it is up to me to try to change those feelings. So today is far it hasnt been too bad. Took my friend out to lunch for her birthday and brought her a cake. My daughter is taking her finals for the summer session in college and will be expecting me to celebrate with her this evening with a beer by the pool; my rose bushes are hanging in there and have provided me with really beautiful red roses despite the heat; these are the things I focus on now.
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    emoticon Hang in there with your roses!! emoticon
    2075 days ago
    Once again so sorry...

    Autumn Rain

    Do not stand by my grave and weep.
    I am not there, I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow,
    I am the diamond glints upon the snow.
    I am the sunlight on ripened grain and
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
    I am that swift uplifting rush,
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft star that shines at night.
    Do not stand by my grave and cry,
    I am not there, I did not die.

    Mary Elizabeth Frye (1904-2004)
    2075 days ago
    Wow! Great attitude for such profound losses. I like how you are giving yourself time to heal and know there is no quick fix. hugs to you. Enjoy your roses!
    2075 days ago
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