Sunday, July 15, 2012
Ever have those days where emotion-raw, pure, intense emotion seems to come on like a flood? Yep, I thought you did too! That describes my yesterday. I have been struggling with nutrition the last two weeks and have gained weight in both of the last two weekly weigh-ins. I am still exercising regularly and don't feel particularly stressed, but emotion is flooding my soul.
I feel like getting down to my ideal weight is this elusive goal that I will never see, I feel discouraged because no one can tell I've lost 26 (I think now) lbs. At my weight, I will have to lose 100 lbs. before anyone even notices. And, I know I'm not doing it for the occasional, "Hey, have you lost weight?" but it sure would feel nice.
Now I don't really need any advice, just a listening ear, so I thank you for reading this. I continue on, through the emotion and on to that vision of myself that I know, with God's help, I can become.