Sunday, July 15, 2012
Today was weigh-in day and I was still up from last week... :/
I ate pretty well this week, although the last 2 nights were not good. I'm doing my Shred workouts everyday, except for 2 this week. One was because of an issue with the dvd player and the other was yesterday, my scheduled rest day.
I know the scale isn't the only thing that I should use to track progress, so I'm checking my measurements, but there is no change there either :( I'm just starting to get a bit frustrated because it seems like it doesn't make a difference what I do. My body seems to want to stay here.
I could deal with that I guess. I know 119/ 120 isn't a bad weight at all. It's just that I set a goal, and when I set a goal I WANT to reach it... I don't want to let it go. However, regardless of weight, I also want to be more toned, I want to actually be able to see my abs and to see real definition in my arms and legs, and that just isn't happening because I'm not reducing my level of body fat.
I think maybe I should start tracking again... it's just rather inconvenient, because I don't always have access to a computer or the internet (to use the app). I feel like I'm eating well, but maybe I'm having portion control issues or something...
I'm also just under a huge amount of stress lately. I've been working and this week was my last week of work before we move. We move in 2 weeks! I'm scared and I'm sad... My mother can't even talk about the move without getting all choked up and now I'm trying to figure out how to actually say good-bye. How do you say good-bye to people you've been so close to for your entire life? How do I go from seeing them at least twice a week to seeing them maybe once a year? I don't know how to do any of this...
I have no job lined up in Nebraska... All the sleep centers I've contacted have no openings or want their sleep techs to also be licensed Respiratory Therapists, which I would have to go to school for 2 years to become...
On a happier note, God did find us an apartment that will let us have ALL 4 of our animals!!! :) I'm so thankful, because I was really starting to worry that we would have to leave some of them behind... but now we get to keep the "family" together.
Guess I'll close now. Sorry this blog is long and sort of a downer, but I felt the need to express these feelings... Hopefully soon, I can post some more happy stuff... I'm going to go do my workout now. 30 Day Shred Level 3 Day 2! Yeah! 9 more days to go!