Sunday, July 15, 2012
I just purchased a bathing suit that i have been eyeballing for the last three years. My cousin's baby shower was a pool party yesterday. I actually put on my cute suit and got into the water for almost an hour. I was the only woman that got in the pool. There were men and kids, but for some reason none of the other women got in. I felt a little odd being the only woman, but I felt comfortable in my cute little retro looking cherry print suit. The last time I remember feeling comfortable in a bathing suit was when I was 4 and I had a cute little rainbow bikini just like my bff Christina (I was comfortable in that bikini until I lost the top in the water).
There were years and years, when I out and out refused to wear a bathing suit in public. I'd go to the beach (I live by the beach) in my capri pants and t-shirt. When I was in Hawaii for my honeymoon, I'd only go in the pool when everyone else was at the evening hotel luau, and the pool was completely empty. It's nice to be able to enjoy a nice pool on a hot day and not feel super self conscious. Even sitting, my body isn't looking too bad these days.
On a side note... some guy (a friend of a friend) called ME "tiny" the other day. Never in my life have I been called tiny. I think I like being called "tiny". So happy to have lost 177 pounds. Life is so much more fun when you're comfortable in your own skin.
Oh, one more side note, I got my booty into some Old Navy Size 2's last week. From a 30 to a 2. That feels good too.
One of my good friends, that has always been a tiny little thing, gave me some jeans. I got them up, but not zipped (they will zip soon) and I was in awe that I could even pull up her little jeans. Sometimes, my body perception is a bit skewed because I have been so many different sizes and was so heavy for so many years. To think of myself as being almost the same size as my skinny friend just blows my mine.