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When did I stop being self-conscious about my bee-hind?

Saturday, July 14, 2012

As a pear-shaped individual I wear my weight below my waist, so even being "only" 30-40 lbs overweight brings with it a big butt and 'thunder thighs'.
(Thank you, ex-mother-in-law, for putting this in my head more than 25 years ago.)

Sticks and stones... wrong! Words can hurt more.

Even after I had lost this weight I remember that I'd often look at myself in the mirror from behind, especially when I was in tights, going to the gym, to see how big that butt still was. During gym class I would wonder how I looked to those working out behind me. (Chances are they couldn't have cared less and never even noticed me, but our mind does stupid things at times.)

I do consider myself a rational and generally level headed person, so this excessive worry seems strange, even to me, but I guess, you can't jump out of your skin.

It's been about 10 years now that I've been exercising consistently, all along reshaping my body. Yes, over a long period of time, exercise does wonders.

Guess it kind of snuck up on me and I don't recall when it happened exactly, but being on the trail today I realized that I haven't spent any thoughts about how I looked from behind in quite some time now; not at the gym and not anywhere.

Building new confidence takes time too. I wonder if getting older aides in that process also?

Here is what I saw on my hike today. At least initially. We actually hiked through the fog and there was sunshine at the top.

And this is how much fun we had.

Have a wonderful weekend y'all.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
IUHRYTR 8/24/2012 4:15AM

    emoticon for positive progress and dedication! -- Lou

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RUNNER12COM 7/15/2012 8:41PM

    What a tremendous non-scale victory. Congrats to you!

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IGSBETH 7/15/2012 2:56PM

    That sounds like a perfect hike!

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BREWMASTERBILL 7/15/2012 10:43AM

    So did 10 years of exercise fix your butt or fix your head? Whichever the case, nice work.

Also, it should be a well known fact that guys generally prefer bigger butts. Hell, there is a song about it.

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BOVEY63 7/15/2012 9:27AM

    My butt has always been one of my least favorite parts - thank you to my Italian side of the family.

Looks like an awesome place to hike!

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MALEXANDER4 7/15/2012 7:10AM

    Girl i'm so jealous...that hike looks awesome. And by the way your behind looks just more worries.

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SHBASLIM 7/15/2012 1:48AM

It looks like you had an adventure, I'm jealous. I rock climbed, for many years and miss it but my life took me in another direction. I married and had children,its hard to climb and take care of children at the same time. I'M PROUD OF YOUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS!
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MJ7DM33 7/14/2012 11:51PM


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CARTOONB 7/14/2012 11:10PM

    I learned the term "thunder thighs" in junior high and it was devastating then too! I'm with you, every once in awhile, I think my thighs look too big. Then I tell myself to shut up and get on with life. Luckily, I usually listen! I'm so glad you are past even that!

Your hike looks like it was fantastic!

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ELYMWX 7/14/2012 10:48PM

    It kind of creeps up on you, doesn't it?

Well done.

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TEDYBEAR2838 7/14/2012 10:31PM

    You look AWESOME!

I'm happy for you and for the fun you had today!


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TANGLEDMERMAID 7/14/2012 10:29PM

    i think about this all the time.. i always get worried people are making fun of me behind my back.. but i guess i should really stop cause they would make fun of me more if i continue to have two bee hinds instead of one.

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