Feeling sorry for myself.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
I thank the Lord for my good health, I know there are many others out there that have much worse problems than I do. However, this last week and a half has been draining, not only physically, but mentally.
It is driving me crazy that I have no concentration or energy. All I want to do is sleep.
Went to the doctor and the best they could determine was low iron (which I have always had). I haven't even moved into the anemic category, just low iron.
I have been focused on taking my iron supplement since Wed when I got it. I realize that isn't long and that it takes time to build up, but I have seen 0 improvement.
I am supposed to be training for the Tough Mudder in September. All I think about is how I moving backwards in fitness instead of forward. I am going to keep to the training program, just not worry about the intensity. For example, today I was scheduled to run 5.5 miles in 55 minutes. I did the 5.5, but it took more than an hour and a half. When I was done, I wasn't sure I would make it back to the house, I wanted to just stop right there in the road (and if the road hadn't been so gravelly, I probably would have). Instead, I continued on to the playground to do monkey bar work. Mistake! I thought I was going to get sick.
I came home and immediately fell asleep. I slept for 2 1/2 hours and then woke up just in time to drive to the garbage dump before it closed. I really got sick then and wasn't sure I would make it home. I did and went right back to sleep until it was time for Church.
As I got home from church, my daughter pulled up and she is making me dinner. So happy!
Any thoughts on ways I an keep my strength up when it feels I have nothing to give?