Saturday, July 14, 2012
First off, let me say that I think my taste is returning. I noticed something was sweet the other day and I don't notice water tasting salty/metallic anymore. Thank God!!!
I am so grateful for fresh starts, new beginnings. I hit a point this week where I realized just how withdrawn, how dull I have become. We went through some events over the past several years... very difficult situations that left scars even though God's own precious touch carried me through. Scars can run deep, straight to the heart. When I experienced these things, these battles, some losses, I have taken refuge in my Jesus Christ, and that helped me get through! I have walked in victory and am so grateful for that! Those things did not destroy me... but they took some of the shine off of me, if that makes any sense. A precious young lady came to visit and reminded me of the times we all had when she used to come stay with my daughters when they were teens. It made me realize that I am nothing like that anymore, and I feel like my younger kids have been ripped off because I have been... not me.
So, I declare a DO OVER! I am asking God to give me a fresh start, to renew me in His love and passion, to help me BE again. God's mercies are new EVERY morning - He is so faithful! I know that I am never supposed to be what I was again, I mean we are supposed to change over time. But I also know that I choose to live again. I am taking back the spark that I gave up when I spent so much time fighting to get through the challenges.