Today I was really tired...I got to sleep late, and then my babies were up at the crack of dawn! I took an exercise break today....since I haven't taken one in 10 straight days, so much needed!

I also was doing some thinking today, about my priorities. What I was thinking is... I really need to be putting all this energy, that I put into weightloss, back into my family. I know there are two sides to this equation... which are either-keep on the way I am, where I have been obsessing about my weight and calories and food, constantly focused on myself....or I can take what I know, and apply it to life in a balanced way....living and socializing, and being carefree, yet responsible.

The latter may come easy to some....and I think it will for me also, once I change my focus.
My focus right now needs to be more on my children, they're only little for so long....that doesn't mean i'm giving up on myself, it just means I need to focus on their young lives and their childhood, more than my needs right now.

How do I plan on making this happen? Well for starters, i'm going to continue eating well and sharing healthy food with my kids and husband....and I also plan on exercising everyday, but with more of a focus on my kids coming first- and what they need (meaning no more making them wait for me to finish a boring exercise video, before taking them outside to play.) Instead, i'm going to make running around and chasing, and playing tag, and running through the sprinkler, and dancing for the heck of it in the yard, and walks, and bike rides and helping my husband with unloading straw bales, and more farm chores in general....be my " living life to the fullest exercise!"

Another thing I was thinking, is I spend too much time on the computer! I need to take a couple steps back and recharge my life batteries!

I still want to be a part of the Spark community, but I think what needs to happen is I just need to keep a paper journal through the week...and then on either Saturdays or Sundays take time to update my progress here on Spark.

Please don't worry...i'm not quitting! I'm just making a shift.

In the past when i've taken situations that i've been obsessive about, and I change my focus the situations have gotten better. That's what i'm thinking will happen with my weightloss, when I start living my life to the fullest- and enjoying- and taking things in with a child like heart....things will fall into place! Or I should say, tighten into place....hahaha!

Thank you for listening friends! I'll be catching up with you very soon!