Thursday, July 12, 2012
. . . but I might give it a try. I've got 24 alcohol-free days under my belt, and I'm feeling pretty good. I quit smoking five years ago and so when my family and my doctor put the hammer down on my drinking, I just accepted that I'd do it and that's that--kinda how I finally accepted quitting smoking. If I could quit smoking, I can quit drinking. But, I have my days when, occasionally, I'd still like a smoke, or more expectedly, I sure do crave some booze. Usually, I have someone around to talk to, but not always. I've been watching stuff on Netflix about addiction and that has helped me. But I know there are going to be some trying moments.
I have resisted Alcoholics Anonymous because I felt it was "too much into the God thing", which I am not. I did check out the twelve steps and I thought, "This is so not me." My daughters agreed. One of them helped me find Women for Sobriety. I am working their thirteen steps. The biggest problem is the lack of local group meetings--there are none.
But today, my Netflix movie was "My Name Is Bill W.". If you haven't seen it, it is a powerful movie--and I say this after believing that I would think it was lame or stupid. I think I "get it" now with all the AA God stuff, if the movie holds true, and reviews say it is accurate. It's not that I'm a diehard atheist, or even agnostic, I just don't feel all that religious at this point in my life. But, let me tell you, this movie spoke to me--"My Name Is Bill W." grabbed me and talked right to me.