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One Year Sparkvesary...this is how the story goes

Thursday, July 12, 2012


It's been a year now that I've been Sparking. I started out with the big idea of just getting the weight off but also in the back of my mind I kept telling myself that I wanted it to be different this time. I wanted the weight off as soon as possible but also wanted to learn more about maintainance. Well, it's like all those other big plans of our own with preconceived notions; it didn't turn out as I thought or thought I planned. LOL

I did lose 40 lbs in the first 7 months with trouble in month four. But I held on for the wild ride and did not quit. I kept Sparking and tracking off and on then managed to refocus and move forward. I even made it through a Las Vegas vacation and the holidays!

What happened at the turn of the new year is still beyond me. How and why did I begin a downward spiral when I had it sooooo together? I fought for months, jan, feb, mar, apr and may gaining 15 lbs. but I never quit Sparking. I kept referring back to the site for inspiration, motivation, and information.

One thing that I have done consistently for over a year now is EXERCISE. There were times when I went into self sabotage mode and questioned why I should keep exercising if I was just going to keep going back to junk and comfort food? But I kept moving and I think maybe that's what brought me back into better eating. I never completely quit tracking. I must say tracking food is a necessary tool for me. So, I tell myself, "Keep doing what you are doing - exercise regularly a not rigidly."

My body composition and shape are a NSV. I weigh more than I'd like too but my muscles are firmer and stronger and some of the fat rolls are very much decreased.

And there are some days I feel so lean and strong and still others I feel fat and frumpy. But those are feelings I have to deal with and cannot dictate my food and exercise choices/habits.
I am an emotional eater and learning how to manage coping strategies. That has been the major hurdle in this journey. Tracking food and exercise is the easy part. But I am learning and Sparking is a really big part of that learning process. reading stories and comments of other Sparkers has been so helpful. Thank you all for your bravery and sincerity.

I will be honest. I want the weight gone NOW! But in all honesty, I know that is not realistic for me. This is a process that I have to manage but cannot expect it to always go the way I plan. But I cannot quit. I will keep Sparking and keep learning and keep losing until ....

I put these thoughts down for self reflection but hope that someone can find something useful for their own Spark journey to better health and happiness as I have here at Sparkpeople. Again thank you to all fellow Sparkers for sharing. Keep in touch.

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    Just keep on going. There WILL be ups and downs, good days/months and bad days/months. The main thing that you're doing right is to keep on being mindful even if you don't follow what you SHOULD do. Congratulations! :)
    2081 days ago
    Just keep exercising each and every day forever. It will keep you younger in the long run. I'm reading "Younger Next Year for Women". Honestly, the weight will come off in time, but the exercise will last you a lifetime of good health and happiness. Hang in there! emoticon
    2081 days ago
  • AUNTB63
    Your determination is inspiring. We sometimes let our "old habits" come back into our lives, but we some how keep coming back to basics. Doesn't matter how long it takes to take the weight off........it's the journey...the learning..that will make the difference in the end. emoticon on your emoticon and may you continue this journey for a lifetime of health and fitness. emoticon
    2081 days ago
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