Thursday, July 12, 2012
Alright Me, you're the first person to point out to others when they are being mean to themselves. So now its mirror time.
You have been through so much trauma, not just over our lifetime, but even just in the last 2 years. You've managed to bounce back after a life threatening illness, quit smoking, change jobs, start getting financials in order, admitted you need and sometimes even asked for help. You've helped your best friend through a break up, a marriage, pregnancy, discovery of cancer and birth of her son. You've been a full time nanny to 2 great little boys.
All of this is stressful enough for anyone. But on top of those 'little' things, you've managed to lose 82 pounds. You've been more mindful and respectful about what you put into your body. It doesn't matter that you can't wrap your head around that number. It doesn't matter that you still don't see much of a difference in your own body. The fact is you DID do that. And you deserve to be proud of yourself and you deserve the praise from the people who have given it to you. You do not need to be hung up on people who don't notice or that still see you only as fat. You are so much more than that.
You are a kind and loving person. You give well above what you should financially, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. You help with animal rescue, you support others in their endeavors, heck you're helping to plan a housewarming party for a widow you've never met because she doesn't like to ask for help! You're a good person. You deserve a life of happiness and good health.
Now, you've slipped up a little over the last few weeks. You've been emotionally/stress eating again and you've gone over your recommended caloric intake. The fact is you've gone over for a couple of weeks now and you gained 5 pounds. The good news is you KNOW you can get rid of those again. Another good thing is you've been going 200-500 over your recommendation, not 1000+. While I'm trying make sure that I'm not being mean, the fact is 200-500 over is not acceptable. You can do better than that. You have done better than that. I know things have be especially stressful this month, but you will be okay. You WILL get through this.
I've told you often enough to get your butt in gear, now lets make sure that gear is NOT reverse. You can do this. You can move more, you can eat less calories and you can get back on track.
I don't tell you this often enough but I do love you. You are worth so much more than how you've been treated by others and by me. I'm sorry that I put us in this state of poor health.
It will get better and I can do this.